So here's the deal.
I have grand plans for a month's challenge, even ask my SparkFriends or brother or husband to join me, then I eat crap until I hurt. It's like planning out a hike using a very detailed map and then leaving the map behind and walking a different direction, letting a flurry of thoughts and emotions take control instead of carpe-ing the diem.
So May is going to be maintenance month even though I still have lots of weight to lose. I think if I just focus on not gaining and not losing, but rather just staying steady during all my stress it may help me just focus on dealing with what's in front of me and what's immediately ahead instead of adding to the stress with the stress of losing weight...if that makes any sense.
I ate my way through April and haven't weighed myself for 2 or 3 weeks (chick-chick-chickEN!!!). The stress I ate for events that occurred:
Birthday meal / cake for father-in-law and wife & us
Running daughter all over for school musical practice & attending musical
Scheduling her driver's ed courses
Cleaning house, grocery shopping, preparing for Easter (coloring eggs, getting baskets, etc.) cooking for Easter meal / daughter's 16th birthday party as we hosted and celebrated with family (20 ppl)
Running son all over for baseball practice & games
Painting half of daughter's room (other half to paint this week or next)
Grocery shopping for party / hooking up borrowed outdoor projector & sound system for outdoor movie / baking cake / making food for 16th bday "friend" party (15 ppl - this past Saturday)
(Yesterday) Driving 2.5 hrs 1-way to my mom's house, renting U-Haul and bringing back much furniture, unloading it all into the garage (have to return truck today, which I can then walk back from ~1.7 miles...but it's raining...)
This week - shifting all 3 bedrooms' worth of furniture and some of the old stuff out to the garage to sell or donate...may hire movers due to trickiness of angles and stairs, and while they're here, get rid of junk furniture in the basement that was left here from people who sold us the house, including an inherited treadmill that none of us use (seriously, I hate using the treadmill).
Shifting furniture = cleaning out drawers = donating clothes. So have to get boxes, have to donate toys from son's closet cleaning. Right now rows of junk are sitting in bedrooms. It's a little disconcerting.
May - maintenance May because...
Surprise! My m-i-l and her husband are coming up from Fla may stay here for 1 or 2 weeks. We don't have a spare bedroom, so there is some major shifting that needs to occur to make this work, which is why the 'hurry' to get the furniture moved to the right rooms. I could go on for a while about this unexpected company, but I won't. So that's all I have to say about that.
Two work trips - one to NJ (has me gone for 2 nights), a few day trips, and a week + two weekends in the UK. Want hubby to go to UK with me (most likely a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for us), which means major planning for the kids' daily school schedules and my son's practices and games. Which means the divorced grandparents may have to work together to allow all this to happen, being as the Fla grandmother will be in town (surprise! like I said. Then my work trip timing - surprise!). I could go on for a while about this divorce ugliness, but I won't. So that's all I have to say about that.
Lots of baseball.
Driver's ed and a driver's test (and a hike in insurance rates! Hooray!).
My son's birthday.
Memorial Day weekend may be a birthday party for my son being as his bday is the Tuesday following. This means family, which means 20 people again. May have to plan differently here...must figure this out with timing of getting back from UK...
This month or the beginning of June = "new" car for me, which means shopping for a car, as my daughter inherits the old paid-off one to get her to her new job (to pay us for that insurance hike) and cross country conditioning.
Hopefully new front door will be installed.
Note, stress can be good and stress can be bad. A body doesn't know the difference between happy stress and bad stress ("distress") being as stress is stress.
And as I stated before, I eat when stressed. And I certainly helped myself in April. Apropos to Easter leftovers, I am incredibly sick of ham.
In my case, all this stressing is really all blessing. There is not one thing in my busy life that is bad. I am blessed to have money for groceries to host people, and grandparents that love the kids, and furniture inherited from my mom's house that we were able to bring to my house (and blessed that my mom's living situation is good considering Dad was moved into the nursing home), and a job that allows me to work from home yet sends me to interesting places that I've never been to before, and kids that are healthy and happy with fun things in their schedules. BLESSED. BLESSED. BLESSED. It's just busy now, and I have to NOT eat to deal.
So the goal is to NOT eat to deal, but to deal, and to deal in a healthy way. Maintain the bit of loss I've had, then go back at it in June when things calm down a bit.
Hmmm...speaking of. I'd better try on my work clothes. One thing about working from home is that sweatpants become the norm and jeans become dress-up clothes....
Thanks for reading. Maintenance May is coming my way!