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Time for regrouping this morning.....

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

It's been a week since I wrote my last blog.

We had a good time over the weekend with lots of social activities. Dinner out with friends on Friday, hosting our family get together on Saturday, and Easter lunch with friends on Sunday. After spending so much time alone during chemo and after recovering from surgery, I felt like a social butterfly.

It was nice, but I'm such an introvert/hermit that it seemed a bit overwhelming. By Monday, I just wanted to be by myself. I spent most of the day in bed reading. While I love to read, I feel like yesterday was kind of like a "lost day." I didn't exercise....and didn't exercise any on Saturday or Sunday either even though the weather was great.

This morning, i woke up early and have had time to think about the last few days and yesterday in particular. I don't want to spend a lot of days like I did yesterday....basically doing nothing.....when I'm not sick. Even though I'm still in treatment for cancer, this phase of treatment is like a "clean-up" phase. Fundamentally, I'm okay. While I need to respect my body's need for rest during radiation treatment, I don't need to treat myself like a full-blown invalid. That's kind of what I did yesterday.

I'm hoping my cancer will never return, but if it does, I don't want to feel that I've wasted this time of relatively good health. With my particular type of cancer, it's most likely to recur within the next three years. I want to make the most of the next three years....and not lie in bed all day in a dark room when the weather is beautiful outside. is a new day. As it happens, it's raining here this morning, but I'm going to make it a good day.

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One of the things I did to regroup this morning was to redo the motivation section on the Start Page of SparkPeople. I really like what SP has done in that area of the Start Page. The chances of cancer recurrence are lower for me if I do certain things like exercise 30 minutes a day so I have a lot of motivation to do those things. Seeing them each day when I start up SparkPeople is a wonderful reminder to me of WHY living healthy is so important to me.

I feel fortunate to be alive. I want to make the most of it each day that I can. Time to regroup....and move forward!


PS. Tomorrow will be another mini-milestone for me in treatment. I will be half way done with radiation, the last leg of my 9 month journey in treatment. Thank you for all of your support along the way. It's been invaluable and I appreciate it more than you will ever know.
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    I honestly don't think your day was lost. I think you just needed a day to regroup, organize your thoughts and gather up more strength. I think it's okay for everyone to do that now and then.

    I feel certain that your cancer will not come back. You are eating healthier than you were before your cancer. I think that cancer comes from being under lots of stress and poor nutrition. You've kicked out all of the unhealthy foods from your diet and you are doing fun things with your hubby. You have such an amazing attitude as well! Your doing everything right which is why the cancer will NOT come back.

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    1485 days ago
    Hi Kay,
    You write very interesting blogs! Like so many others, I hope there will be no return of cancer for you and that the rest of your recovery goes well.
    It's great that you had a nice time over Easter, and it's very understandable that you needed time to recharge with a day of rest. A lot of your energy would have been taken up in socialising and your outings, so there is no reason to feel bad about not having exercised on those days, or the day you spent reading - it's all part of pacing oneself, and actually very sensible. And if reading is something you enjoy, I think of it as good for the soul, as opposed to 'lost'. That it stands out for you makes it a potential happy memory, as well as the Easter outings during this part of your recovery phase.
    You have a wonderful positive attitude to doing everything you can to maintain your health and that is such an inspiration.

    Sending lots of warm wishes and hugs your way - Nattacia

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    P.S. Love the new blue flowers background pic - it looks great!
    1485 days ago
    I certainly don't think your day was lost. You were just hitting the 'pause' button to recharge your batteries after so much activity the day before. That's perfectly fine I think. Some days if I have a day to myself I don't even get dressed...just hang out in the house in my sleep shirt...feels SO good not to always have to be 'on'...its good for the soul to have some down time...I think our society highly over rates...frenetic activity.

    I absolutely KNOW the cancer won't come have your healthy eating plan down pat now and I've always thought that cancer comes from stress and massive mal-nutrition and toxins in our environment.

    Most of us eat FAKE foods that can ONLY lead to our body breaking down..hey that reminds me...I posted on my last blog a wonderful 2014 Food Summit's so full of GOOD information...everyone on planet earth should listen to it!

    Hugs to you my dear friend...if you need a day here and there...go for it..but laz around outside so you get some nice sunshine while reading that book.
    1485 days ago
    Like NEW-CAZ, I too agree you have a wonderful attitude and I do pray the cancer will depart for good!!! ........ I am going thru something right now and had MRI yesterday ...... upper body...Head & neck and so managed to hang tight in that claustrophobic machine! ........ Will get the results Mon ... anyway, sending hugs to you ..... emoticon
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    Introverts tend to need alone time to recharge their batteries and you are also giving your body a chance to rest by taking a day off from exercise; however, I do agree that you probably would have benefited more from the sunshine than from the dark room.

    I appreciate the way you share your thought processes in your blogs. It often helps me to get things into perspective. I also appreciate your candor and realism about life with cancer. Even without disease, none of us knows how much time we have left and it is right and proper that we consider every day a gift and endeavor to use it wisely.
    1488 days ago
    You need to cut yourself some slack! emoticon After that social whirl, you really needed a small bit of time to mentally regroup. Now, if you had spent an entire week in bed, that would be different!

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    emoticon Your such an inspiration to me.
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  • ENG_TV
    Understandable to need a day to yourself. It's part of maintaining mental health for some people. But it's also good to get back in the saddle again. Congrats on 1/2 way through treatment and a great attitude!
    1489 days ago
    I'm an introvert too, and as nice as it is to get out, I am always glad when it's time to come back home.

    I totally understand what you mean about not wanting to feel like an invalid when you are not really sick; that's what got to me the first couple of weeks this month. I'm not where I should be yet, but the fact that I have been trying makes me feel better.
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    So glad you're in the last phase of cancer treatment!! emoticon

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    1489 days ago
    Congratulations on finding your balance and your inspiration. I am so excited you are half way through this treatment!
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    I am so glad to hear you had a wonderful Easter weekend! You are such an inspiration! That is so awesome that you're halfway through your chemo! I'm so happy for you! Sending you lots of hugs today!
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  • MISSG180
    There are days when we just need to veg. That's normal, and even healthy. If you spend too much time feeling guilty about them, though, then you lose the refreshing benefit of those veg days and end up needing more of them! Be kind to yourself. Stress is another trigger for recurrence, so don't stress yourself out!
    1489 days ago
    Regrouping is good, Kay - at least, I think it's hard to plan and think ahead when I'm in the middle of a whirlwind of activity. Good work, and good thoughts!

    (Oh, and I love your new blog background!)
    1489 days ago
    You are an awesome powerful women. And yeah you can't hide in bed sometimes you just have to take a reset day.
    1489 days ago
    So so glad to see this today... I needed to read something and was going to go to your page anyway just to get some motivation. A very close dear friend passed last night of lung cancer. Sadly after breast cancer, depression, her hubbys death, she still smoked and didn't take care and now she too has gone.
    I came here to be uplifted cos you are so positive and doing all you can to make sure you stay healthy. I have been on the fence again for while, eating well for bit, stopping etc. So came today to say Kay does it... and I am going to do it too, for me, for my family, for my grandkids so they still have a grandma and for Tanna and you. Cos girl you are so motivating and I have to do what I can to stop the inflammation in my body from this arthritis.

    HUGS and glad you are doing better, you know your body and it probably needed some down time. HUGS
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    Sending sun your way. Love the background pict you have.
    Happy Earth Day to you. Your friend in Fitness, Holly emoticon
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  • JUNEAU2010
    emoticon Sending you some sunshine so that your spirits will be lifted even more! Thanks for the reminder about how precious each day is! emoticon on your milestone! May you have many, many, many wonderful days and years of being cancer free!
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    Way to go! Keep your head up! You can do it! emoticon
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    Sometimes you need those 'lost' days to just regroup. emoticon
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  • LAURIE5658
    Kay, I just wanted to pop in and say that I have been following your journey as breast cancer is near and dear to my heart. I lost my Mom 6 years ago yesterday. Her cancer was VERY advanced when she finally let someone know and it took me awhile before I forgave her for letting it go for so long (hard-headed woman lol). We had THREE years with Mom after diagnosis which is awesome considering the advance stage of her cancer.

    Please know that I am with you in my heart and cheering from the sidelines.

    GO GET IT, GIRL!!!!!

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    1489 days ago
    Wishing you many years of good health.
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    Have a great day today!!
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    Wonderful attitude to have. I pray it won't come back and that from here on in you'll grow in strength daily. emoticon
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