Three years ago today was the first day of the rest of my life. I’m in awe of how time has flown and how quickly things change. Despite the weight gain, I’ve worked hard and am so much healthier than I was then. I saved my own life (along with my liver) and am grateful that my doctor back then scared me thin or at least thinner than I have ever been. I thought about writing a long drawn out blog talking about my journey, but you know what? I'd rather not. I'd rather let my journey speak for itself and even though I’m in a dark place right now I can’t knock my efforts. I’ve worked hard, cried hard and did the best I could. The weight gain is only temporary; eventually, I’ll be able to get it off and will feel more like myself again. Things will get better in time and I’ll bounce back. I have no doubt of this.
2003, Show: Dorothy and The Wizard of Oz, Role: Glinda the Good, Age: 17
2007, Show: Beauty and The Beast, Role: Mrs. Potts, Age: 21
January 2011, Show: Godspell, Role: Joanne, Age: 25, Weight: 286 - This was the year that I decided to do something about my weight. I couldn't do half that I wanted to do on stage, and my weight was slowing me down.
I wanted to be stronger, fitter. I wanted to continue to be successful. I wanted to continue to thrive. I still do. I may not be where I want to be right now, but I'd rather be here than where I was two years ago.
Summer 2011, Show: Once on This Island, Role: Mama Euralie, Age:25 - I had lost around 45lbs at this point.
January 2012, Show: Hairspray, Role: Motormouth Maybelle, Age: 26 - I had lost around 65lbs or so here.
I’ve been lucky enough to work consistently in the theatre and there isn’t a moment I take for granted. Theatre is my passion and I will be doing it until I physically cannot anymore.
February 2012, Show: The Color Purple, Role: Jarene (Church Lady), Age: 26 - 70lbs or so.
Fall 2012, Ovation Awards Ceremony, Role: Winner of Musical of the Year Award - 90lbs or so. I felt so beautiful on this night and every time I think about it, it makes me smile.
Spring 2013, Show: In The Next Room, Role: Elizabeth - 100lbs Lost, Age: 27
Summer 2013, Show: RENT, Role: Seasons of Love solist; Age: 27 - 10lb or so gain
February 2014, Show: bare a pop opera, Role: Sister Chantelle; Age: 27, Weight: 239 (a 54lb gain)
My name is MissB8604 and I...
I suffer from Depression
I am a singer
I am an actor
I am a daughter
I am a fiancée
I am a step-mother
I am a cat lady
I am an avid book reader
I am a history nerd
I make mistakes
I love Disney
I am a Official SparkPeople Success Story
I am an Official SparkPeople Motivator
I was Featured In The Huffington Post for my Weight Loss
I ran/walked my First 5k in 2013, Second in 2014
I did gain 50lbs back from 100lbs lost
I am HUMAN
I am and will always be victorious
This list is just a fraction of the person I am despite the weight gain. I can do this, I will do this. I've come so far and have so much life ahead of me. This is only a setback and I will not let my depression win.
Here's to more years of good health and a good life.
My 2014 Bible Verse:
Mark 5:36 "Don't be afraid, just believe."
My Weight Loss Bible Verse: Romans 8: 7 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."