Processing and Accepting Weight Loss
Saturday, April 12, 2014
One thing that I find very difficult and not talked about often is how difficult it can be to process and accept weight loss for some people. As a naturally shy person who doesn't necessarily like to stick out of the crowd (although sometimes I like to surprise people), I have a hard time with people making comments about my weight loss. When someone says something, it makes me feel all squirmy inside and want to change the subject right away. Lately, I've been losing a lot of inches and needing new clothes. I know that when I go home I will look different and probably receive comments from people, so I've been working on processing the change in me so that I can graciously accept comments.
One thing that I've done is compare myself now to how I looked 2 years ago. I've done this by comparing pictures and comparing measurements. To compare the measurements, I've even taken out my tape measure and set it to how big I was and put that around me so that I can see visually how much more room there is now. It's unbelievable! I've seen the change slowly, every day. To think like someone who hasn't seen me in a while, I can understand how surprised they might be because I truly have lost a lot of inches. I'm at a lower weight now than I was in eighth grade. That's huge!
Another way I've been processing the change is by planning what clothes I'm going to buy. I need to get rid of my 18s and XLs this summer. I'd do it now, but I live in Venezuela and can't find clothes that are in my style here. I think I need to buy 14s and larges (or maybe some mediums). I've been making specific lists about what needs to go and what I need to buy. It's exciting to see that clothes aren't fitting.
Finally, I've been talking with people. Last night, I shared with my mom my lists of clothes to buy and get rid of. This is really hard for me to share because I get embarrassed easily and feel uncomfortable knowing that my parents really struggle with their weight. Why, I didn't even want to tell my parents when I signed up for a half marathon last year! I've also been talking with my roommates, which is easier since they all have shared their struggles with weight, food, and exercise (although, their struggles are very different from mine). It's hard to take the initiative to start conversations about weight with people in person (I blog about it very easily), but it is so necessary to help me process and accept my own weight loss.
Processing and accepting my own weight loss is an important part of this journey. When I think of my weight loss, I tend to think about how far I have to go, but I need to think more about how far I've come! That's what others see, and it's why they give me so many compliments. I've come far, and I'm still going! I need to stop hiding behind my weight and enjoy who I am at this moment! When people comment on it, I need to stop and smile and say thank you. This journey is a slow and steady process. It's not just about food, weight, and exercise; it's about a mindset change as well.
Current Weight: 181.8