Trying to Stay On Track
Friday, April 11, 2014
Its after 8 at night, and we are finally able to get some dinner. We have been over trying to help our son. His mental health problems are out of balance again and my husband and I are trying to be supportive - without enabling him. All we got accomplished to night was to bring him some dinner, clean clothes and tried to talk him into getting more mental health help. He is Bipolar (among other things), and not in a receptive frame of mind.
Thursday his case manager took him to the hospital because he had sprained his ankle and had missed his appointments. He was given a script for pain meds but was unable to get it filled and went right to bed. 11:30 at night he called me because he was in so much pain he could not sleep and would not wait until morning. I drove across town, found an all night pharmacy, and took him home. By the time I got home it was after 2 am and I could not go right back to sleep. Normally, I would get up at 4 am, go for my walk, eat breakfast and take care of my grandson. I could not get my butt out of bed. I thought about taking a walk in the afternoon, but its already 95 degrees and I don't do well in the heat.
Here is where my goals, plans, and resolutions normally fall by the way side. I am an emotional eater, and when my son does not stay on his meds, it causes so many problems in every area of his life - and since we are his support system in ours as well.
Since I don't drink, my way of coping is to calm myself with food. Then I feel bad and the whole cycle starts a new. I am well aware of how poor this coping system is. So, we will get up in the morning and walk. Our late dinner was not greasy high calorie take out food, it was good healthy fruit, veggies and left over lamb burgers. We will take this one day at a time, because it can and has gotten really bad with my son. I can not change him, but I also cannot allow him to drag us down with him. New day tomorrow, I will make the most of it. I will try not waste this night worrying about what I can't change.