Power of Suggestion....

I really try to go to two different weight watcher meetings per week. I like both the leaders and the members that attend each one. Since January, I have not been able to make the 2nd meeting. A number of factors...my teeth with dental appointments...and swear each week...bad weather arose. Yes, we had a harsh winter. This week...I was able to attend the 2nd meeting.

Yes...it was good to see the regulars....and lots of new people too! You could tell they were close...and I was actually happy to see that. I realize that membership has dwindled due to many factors, so this was positive. They even set up a walking group that commences once the meeting is over. Very positive.


The meeting was NOT what I expected. It was more of a social hour/gathering than a meeting.

I am not even really sure what the meeting was suppose to be about......that is how off it was. There was a traffic light on the board....red...yellow...and green. What foods were green...good to go.....yellow....precede with caution.....and red....stop!

Okay....fine and dandy.

RED was an issue. People started talking about the actual FOODS that were RED LIGHT for themselves. It wasn't even food, but sweet treats......drinks....etc. They were specific.....they were exact. They laughed ...they shared...their eyes lit up with excitement as they mentioned their treats....indulgences. Kayleen was on my left...and this other woman was on my right......they kept leaning forward over me....discussing red licorice.....jelly beans. I wanted to pop them with my fist. I wanted them to lean back and quite frankly, shut up.

I was appalled that this was happening. I kept waiting for the part where you can either...substitute....do moderation.....ANYTHING but this carried on conversation. I tried to say something......

and Kayleen told me that no one wants to hear it..they want to talk about these foods/treats.....it was fun and I should lighten up.


Okay............


I just sat back.

I think that weight watchers missed the boat on the TRAFFIC LIGHT. I would have still used the system....but used the lights ON HOW to proceed...NOT WHAT FOODS were the colors of the lights. Perhaps other meetings did...but this one didn't.


When it was over....Kayleen asked for a hug. Asked if I would start walking with them.
I gave her a hug, but declined the group walk. My goodness....my immediate thought was after the walk they would go get an ice cream cone.

I instead went to the store since we needed fresh items for the night and next day. I grabbed the small hand held basket.

Spinach.....check.
eggs..........check
tomatoes..check
peppers....check
ff cheese...check.


Oh MY.....look what I came across! .....at one of the END isles......EASTER CANDY!

With all the selections on display....my eyes immediately caught chocolate covered marshmallow eggs!

Forget about Hedonic Hungry....it was BEYOND that. My mouth watered like Pavlov's dog......I went insane. It was 2 for one dollar. I grabbed TWO of those bad boys.

I must have had some sort of inkling that what I was doing was wrong...because I hid them...HID THEM...under the bag of spinach. Yes...I did.

I looked back at the rest....I wanted more...I almost GRABBED more.....but....some sort of decorum must have over came me, for I realized I had better get out of Dodge while I still could.


I would LOVE to be able to tell you ....that I put them back on the shelf ...or that once home...I put them away......

I would LOVE to be able to tell you that.....

BUT.......

a renewed found FRENZY over came me. I have NEVER eaten in the car......NEVER......but I tore open BOTH eggs...and.....ate them.

Actually...I am not even sure I ate them.....they barely hit my teeth and they were gone.


Once home.......

it hit me.

I sat in disbelief in the garage for the longest time.

What happened?


For 8 straight weeks...I have been following the simply filling tech. I have. I LOVE it. I have NOT missed a single day tracking on etools. That is RARE for me and I have grown to love it. I have not even wanted chocolate...my desire ....was GONE. Yes...I do have an indulgence once a week...PLANNED. I have plenty of weeklies left and my activity points to more than cover that.

I now eat my food VERY slowly. I SAVOR what I am eating.

I have thought ahead for every social situation I have encountered and planned accordingly.

I have had a loss 7 out of the 8 weeks.

In one FLASH.....I ........became a frenzy maniac.......My goodness....I don't even think I tasted those Easter treats.


I know.... I know......

it isn't the end of the world. I have more than enough weeklies and activity points to cover that....moment. I do.


It still horrifies me to no end......it does.

My saving grace.....is that I tracked it....in the past...I probably would not have.

I still ate my lunch of salad and chicken with one hard boiled egg. I did not lose the rest of the day.......or....take on the attitude that...well...now I may as well do this or that...and start fresh on Monday type thinking. I continued on ...that very next meal.

Why did I go ......crazy?

I didn't pause to think first. I think the meeting just minutes prior set me up.........In all the spaces and routines....it never has it been mentioned that a meeting was a place to conqueror. NEVER.

It is sort of like AA......you don't go there to discuss drinks ...bars...and parties. You just don't.


It wasn't the meetings fault...it was mine....but......STILL........
STILL....STILL I SAY!


So..........this am....at work....I decided to approach my husband about Saturday night. We always have pizza that night.....(allotted for)....and played up to his.....manhood of the GRILL. I complimented his bbq skills and said that since SPRING has SPRUNG....let's GRILL some chicken in lieu of pizza night! His eyes lit up and he agreed. All day long he talked about his grill! LOL!

YES.....I have MORE than enough points for that ....breakdown....but....I felt I had to gain CONTROL back...MY control back.....and this was how I could let go of that FRENZY moment I held.

Was it the meetings fault?

Was the meeting the worse meeting I have ever been at?


It was my fault......

Was it the worse meeting ever?

Perhaps not....unknowningly ........it taught me a valued lesson.

I have learned a lot....I have...and I have applied that knowledge....in time.

What I learned...that....I can fall back......and in such a way...worse than I have ever been ...ever been....but I can bounce back...SINCE I WANT TOO...with the lessons PRIOR to the TRAFFIC LIGHT.