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I Swear I'm Not A Drama Queen

Wednesday, April 09, 2014

I swear, I'm not one of those people who likes to make some drama. Before February, I'd never had a panic attack. I have had two nervous breakdowns in the span of about a decade, but that's not quite drama in the big crazy sense, is it?
But right now, I still can't get anything... I just, urggg! I nearly cried at the gym. People talk about the mid-life crisis, and now the quarter-life crisis, I'm kind of having like, a third-life crisis. I'm not in the middle or first quarter of my life, but I'm about a third of the way through. And I'm freaking the eff out.
I don't have a dream job anymore. I have nothing I want to do that could create any real income.
I don't know how I'll pay my bills this month, or now we're going to pay our taxes next week.
That's it. That's all there is to say. No elaboration, no rambling on. I'm paralyzed and the best anyone can say to me is "You'll get through this" or "I'm here if you need me". For an action-oriented person who is completely crippled, those are just words to me.
Right now I feel like a hopeless loser and I have no answers.
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  • DEBADEAU
    Write a list of things you could potentially do to solve each problem and if you struggle have a good friend sit down and help. Then work your way through those solutions and cross off any that aren't realistic. Create some realistic goals. That's how you take action!
    2312 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/11/2014 9:37:33 PM
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    I understand this very well. Overwhelming with no apparent answers, even for a smart woman. Hope you have a support system of sorts. Tougher to do things alone.
    2312 days ago
  • IGNITEME101
    Many are in the same situation. Praying for you, dear one. Take care of YOU!
    2312 days ago
  • POSITIVEHOPE
    I suggest you solve your immediate problems before worrying about your long term problems. File your taxes without a check. They will contact you and tell you what's next. Pay what you can on your bills. Rotate who's late month to month until you get ahead again.
    When your head is a little above water, then you can begin to dream and plot your future career path. Solving one problem at a time will give you confidence and hope.
    2313 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4274730
    All I can say is: I totally get it. I've been where you are so many times. I'm 34 and I'm just now feeling like I'm MAYBE getting it together but there is still so much to worry about. Taxes - you can set up a payment plan with the IRS if you owe taxes. They are actually a lot more reasonable than you might think. I've done it before and we're doing it now. It sucks, but it helps. You can always call them if you're having trouble making a payment. Like I said, they are actually fairly reasonable and understanding. They'd rather you pay something than nothing.

    When we've hit any rough patches, it's always helped for me to call companies (internet, electric, water, etc.) and talk to them about it, let them know my payment would be late and such.

    We seem to always manage to somehow get back on our feet, although I can tell you that there have been many, many months at a time where I felt completely lost and hopeless.

    I don't know if you're working now - but if you can get even something temporary, that might help? I'm not sure what it is you do or what your dream job is...

    Anyway, I really sympathize. I absolutely get it.


    2313 days ago
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