Hello. These past 2.5 days have seriously had me laughing. Not because they were fun, but because the drama has been so crazy, If I wasnt calm through it all, then I would have lost my mind. haha. Thank God I have been through worse in life, and being back on track for 2 weeks full force has been the best kick in the butt I could ask for.
Last night I had to watch my 1 year old nephew OVERNIGHT, and that was after the kids refused to stay in bed, after a long winding day of drama, bike accidents, running my mom all over the city to an appointment she couldnt even get to, to starving and needing to use the bathroom, to dumping the kids dinner on the kitchen floor when my phone rang, (NO WONDER ITS ALWAYS ON VIBRATE, HAHA) to fighting a headache to forcefully exercising to make sure I got it in before the drama started (
SO DO YOU THINK MY NEPHEW LET ME SLEEP AFTER ALL THAT MESS? NOPE
But I expected him to be up seeing as he had to sleep at a new house while my sister had to go to the emergency room. Shes prego, and was sick with horrible headache and could not eat for days. She couldnt even get out of the car when her and her boyfriend dropped my nephew off. Turns out it was just severe acid reflux?! wow, and she was so dehydrated from not holding food down that her contractions started early. Shes good now.
But, I was happy to watch my lil nephew. He is treated just like my own, and i do good with all 3 kids, even though its pure chaotic at times.
Today the sun was out
so best believe that because I wasnt able to get my treadmill in, that i pushed my 2 little ones in the double stroller to go pick up my other daughter at school.
I think I may be able to do an evening treadmill in as long as people stop calling my phone or as long as my kids dont get crazy.
HAVE YOU EVER TRIED TO EXERCISE WHEN YOUR OUT OF BREATH AND THE KIDS KEEPING ON ASKING YOU QUESTIONS AND YOU GET SUPER AGGRAVATED BECAUSE YOU CANT FOCUS ON YOUR WORKOUT? Yes I have, so I do my best to plan ahead. haha.
Through all this I have totally kept tracking and have not been eating crazy. Probably because I have been kept busy, but mainly because my routine has kicked in and I have been pretty dedicated. What changed to get me to spark everyday again?
Well, It weighs on you until you decide to soul search. Then what worked for me was my journal became my best buddy. I literally take my journal everywhere. in the car, to the park, onm my walks, to bed, I write in it every chance I get and It had helped me think through my feelings and issues, it tracks what i do, eat, feel, and thoughts of everything, so its important to me.
I will more than likely be situating the kids so I can still get on the treadmill. I stick with the 5-10% incline @ 2.5mph for 20 or so min. . That works for me and me only. I can do more, I can even run if I wanted, but If I still have to deal with my kids, or if my feet or back are in pain (especially from rocking a overtired baby all night) haha.
I am just so thankful to have been in spark mode because my god the exercise is making me feel fit and healthy. I remember when I weighed 333. I couldnt even lay down without feeling the fat on my neck choke me. It was getting a bit out of hand. So happy the 40lbs is gone. Im trucking along so good on a routine.
All of you are my inspiration too.
Thanks for listening.