Monday, April 07, 2014
After four days in “survival mode” in which I made it to work, made it home, drank little, ate little, I am happy to say that the constant fever is gone!! My throat still hurts a bit, but it doesn’t feel like I’m swallowing nails anymore! The biggest sign was getting home from work and not feeling like the only thing I could possibly do was crawl into bed and veg for the rest of the evening. I actually went out to get my own dinner that I meant to bring back and spend a quiet evening at home. But I ran into a friend at the restaurant and spent the evening chatting. I got some new ideas on goals and also someone to help me start learning some new recipes! All in all, a very nice day indeed.
Now that my energy is back and in a much better place, day eleven will be about getting those goals met again. I may overstate this time and time again, but once again, I feel so right about this path. In the past, getting sick would have been a perfect excuse for me to let things slide…not only for while I was sick but afterwards too…and then I would feel guilty about doing that and make myself feel worse for not measuring up to my own standards, etc, etc, etc, and they bad cycle would continue. Instead, I can look at my calendar of 500 days, see that 4 of them I didn’t do very much on because I was really sick and realize I have a lot more days of good coming up to make up for not feeling well on these 4. It sounds silly to my logical half to finally realize this, but now my emotional half gets it too.
I am blessed by the support I have around me. I am surprised by the support I’m learning to find within myself to keep moving forward. The more I turn to God for comfort instead of food or laziness, the stronger I feel. I know that there will be days I feel as strong as a mountain, and others that I feel as weak as a lamb. But the more chances I find to turn my heart to Christ for truth, I will have more days as a mountain and less days as a lamb.
PS…my new bike arrived! I can’t wait to start riding it!