Are My Feelings Important to Me?
Friday, April 04, 2014
Are my feelings important to me?
Am I living the life I want to live?
These are the questions that I have been avoiding, that I have been pushing away with food and binge watching of TV. With taking care of everyone else. But the thoughts keep coming up - I am listening for now, in this moment. This is progress.
I've also had thoughts like "If Katie can do it, so can I". What do I want my 'after' picture to look like? I love the smiles in her after pictures. And, "If Robert can do it, do battle with emotional eating and setbacks from injuries, so can I." BTW, Katie is AKA 'SlimKatie' and has a great blog called RunsForCookies. Robert is SP's own 'On2Victory'. I so appreciate what they have shared!
So, what's my sitch? I did not follow my training plan, injured my knee and will have to miss tomorrow's half marathon and the one two weeks after that. And I probably won't meet my goal to do 12 half marathons this season. My real goal is just to be able to run, to get back to running. I love it. I love how it helps with my stress and anxiety. Running was my main sanity in the very stressful past 9 months I've had. My doc told me me she was so proud of my having completed the marathon and of my plans for jthe halfs when I saw her for a health screening for work a few weeks ago. And she told me yesterday her goal is to get me back to running. I love my doc! I'm waiting on the results of my x-rays, but I know PT is in my future. I really hope I can resume short runs soon - maybe 3-4 miles - but I WILL wait for the doc's okay.
The timing of today's motivational video was spot on for me:
I *CAN* do this!