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Injured, and sad

Friday, April 04, 2014

I am having a very bad day. I just got back from the physical therapist. She thinks I have a bulging disc. That means for now no biking, no lap swimming, no free weights, no running for now. I can walk at a moderate pace, walk in the swimming pool, and use the weight machines. Low weight, high reps for endurance. I have to admit it, I got a little weepy. I'm pretty devastated. She encouraged me that she thinks it's manageable, and that I can work back up to those things once we get the swelling out of the disc and build up my core. But I just want to cry.

Rebecca and her family are leaving for Disneyworld on Sunday for their Make-a-Wish. She has been rejected for all research studies, so when they get back from Disney we will just be waiting for the final degeneration. At this point, you'd never guess she was sick. It's heartbreaking to see this lively, funny, adorable five-year-old running around in a body that doesn't know that her brain is a grenade waiting to go off. It just doesn't seem real that we can't do anything to save her.
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    Oh my!!! I will pray for this little girl. I'm so sorry for your back problems. I can't imagine not being able to do the things you want to do. Prayers for you too.
    1804 days ago
    1807 days ago
    No words. Just sending comforting vibes across the ether.


    1808 days ago
    You will come back stronger from all of this. We do get better at coping with the tragedy in our lives.... emoticon
    1808 days ago
    I'm so sorry you are having a tough time. I've been sick since last summer, and I eventually had to give up all my physical activities, but I'm now on the mend and taking baby steps to get back to where I was. Last summer I could walk a 20km, now I'm just glad to be doing 3km! Have patience, don't push too hard, you'll get there in the end.
    1808 days ago
    I'm sorry about your injury. I've been there and it's very hard to have such limitations when you like to be active. You really learn the meaning of patience during times like these. emoticon

    And I'm sorry that sweet little Rebecca won't get well. She is truly loved and that's so very important. emoticon
    1808 days ago
  • .DUSTY.
    I'm so sorry about your back! I'm wondering though if you're putting a lot of your sadness about Rebecca towards your back? Making you feel way worse than you otherwise would normally be? Does that make sense?

    Just take care and do what your doctor says.

    Big emoticon

    1808 days ago
    I think it was you who told me to listen to my body when I tore my knee and I know it easier said then doing it and yea I know how you feel about not being able to work out.. .my downtime I did try to keep my self busy.. it is hard but.. you will get through it and before you know it you will be back at all your activities

    I am sorry about Rebecca and I have been saying a prayer for her everyday.. I cannot imagine being told that they cannot do anything for this.. no treatment what so ever? no radiation? no drug..? I know there is all different types of cancers I knew two children that had these one did survive and the other she lost her fight.. sometimes it makes me so bad when they say there is nothing that can be done, and that is the time we need to pray more.. which I will for her

    1809 days ago
  • JUSTME9898
    Be careful with your back - I sneezed and turned a bulging disc into a ruptured disc and was almost paralyzed. Do exactly what the therapist tells you. I had back surgery 30 years ago and after a long time healing I have not had any reoccurring problems.
    My prayers and wishes for Rebecca.
    1809 days ago
    Hi, I spotted your blog and just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I understand how set backs, especially in the midst of worrying about a child, can seem huge. Please take good care of yourself and know that with some time and patience you will be able to go back to your favorite exercises.

    Regarding Rebecca, I am so sorry to hear that. I cannot imagine the pain of watching a child go through what you've described. I can, however, pray for you all, and I will. My heart goes out to you and your family.

    Blessings to you and yours,

    1809 days ago
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