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Wednesday, April 02, 2014

Hi All,

It's been a difficult day from the very beginning to the end--sometimes things happen, I know. It was frigid cold outside today because of the wind and a lower temperature than expected. I went out for my duty and I had two pair of gloves on. The longer that I was out, the colder it got--my fingers were burning. They were hurting and my back was really objecting. I was out to help watch our kids all in lines waiting to go inside. Some were wearing shorts and many weren't wearing socks. I took my first opportunity to go inside and after going outside at 8, it was about 9:20 before my hands starting feeling normal again. My fingertips stayed swollen all day long. And that doesn't even begin to describe the pain in my back. I got all teary-eyed for a few seconds before I could control it--and I was angry to be in that situation.

I added one more group of students during my only 20 minute break for this quarter. I also added several other students filling my room to capacity. I am so worried about all of the need in our building right now--class sizes are so big and the new students that have moved us from a building of 480 to a building of 548 are all needy students. There is more to do than I can possibly do.

That took me to my evening and my WW meeting. Somehow, I gained 1.8 this week and even though I can explain that I did NOTHING to cause this. I know that the intensity and length of my workouts during break could have created muscle while breaking down fat. I know that having a week where my weight balances itself after losing over 11 pounds and over 5% of my body weight in 3 weeks is also very logical. But, I hated hearing this!! It was like the lousy ending to a lousy day!! (I know that I passed on eating ice cream and cake at two parties, two days in a row over the weekend--and I know that I stuck to my eating plan perfectly with not one bite unrecorded or going over my amount of food even once.) I know this happens, but it didn't make me happy at all,

That brings me to today. I am hopeful that I hear from University Hospital today to let me know when I will be starting my surgery and going down a path to less pain, the ability to stand up straight and walk unassisted, and the chance to live a more "normal" life. Maybe this other stress will back down with my physical stress being reduced. I cannot consider things like a career change/ move until my medical needs are met.

Ii's 5 AM, so I could try to sleep a bit more or I could start getting ready for work...or I could continue doing what I am doing now, which is nothing that couldn't wait until later. I don't know...
Take care of yourselves!
Gentle hugs,
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    It's too cold to be out in that weather any lenght of time. It sounds like Illinois is planning on reducting the education budget by 1 billion dollars. I'm sure things are really going to be bad.

    I hope you have a surgery date soon!!
    1811 days ago
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    Pat said it most eloquently. You had a rotter of a day topped by the inexplicable weight gain. Sorry to hear this :( Yes, you need that surgical relief soon..
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    Hoping today I will find out what and when my next step is.
    1813 days ago
    Sylvia; You will do this.. You have dealt with so much adversity and this too will be met, dealt with and left behind. I am so sorry you had to be out in the cold for so long yesterday. I just don't understand people sometimes. Why didn't one of the other teachers come to your aid. One of them could have relieved you and taken your place watching the students waiting to go inside. It seems as if people just don't take the time to help and care for their fellow workers. The overcrowding in the schools seems to be an ongoing problem. One that we can do nothing about.
    The 1.8 lb. weight gain is something you normally would not have let bother you but it was just another shove after a terrible painful day. You know you are doing everything you can to lose the weight and be as healthy as possible for your surgery.
    Hopefully the news will come soon about your surgery date and then you will feel more focused and in control. Take care dear friend and have a blessed day. Hugs Pat.
    1813 days ago
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