Wednesday, 4/2 April fools, yesterday??
Wednesday, April 02, 2014
It's been a difficult day from the very beginning to the end--sometimes things happen, I know. It was frigid cold outside today because of the wind and a lower temperature than expected. I went out for my duty and I had two pair of gloves on. The longer that I was out, the colder it got--my fingers were burning. They were hurting and my back was really objecting. I was out to help watch our kids all in lines waiting to go inside. Some were wearing shorts and many weren't wearing socks. I took my first opportunity to go inside and after going outside at 8, it was about 9:20 before my hands starting feeling normal again. My fingertips stayed swollen all day long. And that doesn't even begin to describe the pain in my back. I got all teary-eyed for a few seconds before I could control it--and I was angry to be in that situation.
I added one more group of students during my only 20 minute break for this quarter. I also added several other students filling my room to capacity. I am so worried about all of the need in our building right now--class sizes are so big and the new students that have moved us from a building of 480 to a building of 548 are all needy students. There is more to do than I can possibly do.
That took me to my evening and my WW meeting. Somehow, I gained 1.8 this week and even though I can explain that I did NOTHING to cause this. I know that the intensity and length of my workouts during break could have created muscle while breaking down fat. I know that having a week where my weight balances itself after losing over 11 pounds and over 5% of my body weight in 3 weeks is also very logical. But, I hated hearing this!! It was like the lousy ending to a lousy day!! (I know that I passed on eating ice cream and cake at two parties, two days in a row over the weekend--and I know that I stuck to my eating plan perfectly with not one bite unrecorded or going over my amount of food even once.) I know this happens, but it didn't make me happy at all,
That brings me to today. I am hopeful that I hear from University Hospital today to let me know when I will be starting my surgery and going down a path to less pain, the ability to stand up straight and walk unassisted, and the chance to live a more "normal" life. Maybe this other stress will back down with my physical stress being reduced. I cannot consider things like a career change/ move until my medical needs are met.
Ii's 5 AM, so I could try to sleep a bit more or I could start getting ready for work...or I could continue doing what I am doing now, which is nothing that couldn't wait until later. I don't know...
Take care of yourselves!