1,000-2,499 SparkPoints 1,939

I am a Rebel (with a cause)

Sunday, March 30, 2014

It is 3:30 a.m. as I write this short blog. I haven't blogged in a long time as I let myself take a break from eating consciously and taking really good care of myself. I am a rebel. I rebel against anything someone tells me to do. Even if it is something that is actually good for me, such as going to bed at a time most other people go to bed and sleep. I find myself climbing into bed anywhere between 2 and 4 a.m. There is no scolding parent around to yell at me and force me to slow down and end my day before the next one has technically begun.

My cause now is to stop rebelling against myself! I sometimes still choose to do or not do things based upon childhood experiences with an unreasonable and sometimes just plain controlling father. I am about to be celebrating 58 years on this planet and yet I realize that at times I feel like I'm only 8 years old. That's when I let myself stay up too late to watch tv, or eat that cookie, or not do the dishes, and the list goes on. I think I'm ready to grow myself up and begin to re-parent myself in a kind and gentle way.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    emoticon emoticon
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1546 days ago
    Nothing wrong with being you. Be mindful that you matter and all will be well, when you move in the directions that benefit you. Have a wonderful day of awesomeness!
    1546 days ago
    you seem to be your own worst enemy . good luck in your path and may the best personalty win .
    1546 days ago
    good luck
    1546 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by QUEENLADY2008