Well, hello everyone! It's been quite some time since I've been on here for more than 2 minutes. I wish I had some wonderful story to tell you about how I've turned a corner for March and my fitness minutes have been caught up on and my nutrition is stellar.
Alas, that isn't the case. And I'm too stressed out about other things to be stressed out about it. There are only a few days left of this month. I'm going to just let it go and try again for April. I'm going to dig out my treadmill (after all these yard sales, I can't believe I still have a living room full of stuff!). And then I'm going to clean my room so I have a secondary space to workout in.
I've totally been out of control with my nutrition and eating. Most of it is in fact my fault and within my [lack of] capacity to control. But, like most people, stress does a number on my willpower. And my willpower was basically nil. The next obstacle, the one less in my control, was having good stuff available in the house and having the time to cook healthy meals myself. A lot of our funds went toward the surgery for my kitty Louie (update on that in a second). And a lot of MY time went toward hustling for those funds, studying until my eyeballs couldn't focus on the page anymore, and doing homework-projects-prepwork for stuff. This amounted to less time for me to cook foods and take care of myself because I was so busy taking care of the family and taking care of my grades.
Luckily, Louie's surgery is done and he's home recovering. We got the funding together in two weeks flat! We scheduled his surgery for the 21st and we got to bring him back home on Monday (the 24th). The surgery was much more invasive and complicated than originally planned. See, when the vet and surgeon were going in there, they expected to be removing a big ol' stone (all his urinalysis results led to this belief) and instead they found a "mass". They didn't know what it was, so they sent it off for testing. They sewed up my kitty and observed him over the weekend. He was ready to come home! He is having a tough time resting. He feels so good after feeling so bad for so long that he just wants to be all over the place! But, he doesn't realize his belly is sutured in several layers. His bladder was cut open and is sutured, the underlying muscle tissue was sutured, and his skin is sutured. Louie is also not allowed to see his BFF Kyle, which is making both of them very sad. Anyway, we got the test results back from the vet and Louie does not have cancer which is what we were all worried about. Basically, his body was trying to protect itself against the crystals being produced in his kidneys and this mass just built up until it was huge and out of control. We're just happy he's healthy.
Not only has the month of March been busy and stressful, as far as my poor kitty and school, but I had very few opportunities for any fun! I went to lunch with my mom, my granny, and my cousin one day. It was nice to just enjoy their company for a bit. One afternoon my cousin and I went to a local mall to a snack joint and had one of our favorite treats- a tamarindo apple! And a raspado (its a Mexican shaved ice drink, essentially). But, that's pretty much been it.
School sucked up a lot of my time. This past Wednesday was particularly rough. I had two major assignments/projects/thingies due on the same day. I was not only having to study for anatomy/physiology, since my instructor seems to think his class is the only class in the world and there's nothing going on in my life that is as important as his class, but in my religion class, the project I signed up for was coming up due. I had a 7 page "research" paper about Judaism to write. Then, I had a group project to complete. I so very much HATE group projects in college. They are truly the worst. I did luck out a little bit this time around. The other members of my group all wanted to contribute and put in their fair share of work! Amazing! That pretty much never happens... Unfortunately, we had one member of our group who was... ... ... I'm trying so hard to be nice, but really, and I'm so sorry to have to say it this way and it sounds so judgmental of me, but he was just dumb. His contributions were rarely of any worth. He was so wishy-washy with things. He'd say he wanted to help with one part, and then a day later change his mind and want to help with another part. He took it upon himself to start putting together our PowerPoint presentation without talking to anyone about it, even though that task had already been delegated to two other group members. And he did a very plain, terrible job on it. He also took it upon himself to change the other holiday we were required to talk about without asking the rest of the group. The other members of our group (myself included) pretty much had to override anything he did or said. And I should clarify, I don't think he was trying to be difficult or deliberately a nuisance. I honestly and truly think he was just that dumb that he didn't realize what a huge pain he was. Also, trying to coordinate the schedules of 8 people to meet outside class time to work on the project and presentation was impossible. NO ONE had a schedule that meshed. So, we did everything online. We met for the first time to go over our presentation 45 minutes before we were to give our presentation. Seriously. My contribution was not only to *talk* about the Passover Seder Plate, but to *make* one AND to make a sample dinner. It turned out awesome! I made a huge pot of matzo ball soup in my crockpot. I also made haroses, which is an apple and nut mixture. A few other group members made some bread, some brought kosher grape juice. It turned out great and delicious. We basically did an abbreviated version of the Passover Seder. Everyone loved our presentation with our PowerPoint, and they especially loved the food!
Sadly, that same morning, I had a HUGE a&p exam. That exam was really tough. Not because the material was hard, but because the amount of stuff to study was very disproportionate to the number of questions to be asked on the test. 40 questions in the lab practical portion (the part with diagrams, models, microscope slides, etc) and 40 multiple choice questions. The test itself covered the integumentary system- skin and all things skin. The 5 layers of the epidermis, the different cells found there, the function of the cells, the names of the layers, which cells found in which layers. The 2 layers of the dermis. All the stuff found there- tissue types, hair follicles, sudoriferous (sweat) glands- apocrine or eccrine- and where do you find them on the body, sebacious (oil) glands and where you find those on the body, and then about hair specifically- what is hair made of, the layers of hair, the lifecycle of hair, where is hair NOT found on the body, and then nails- what are the parts of the nails. The test also covered the skeletal system- all 206 bones in the body- their names, locations, surface features, shapes, and all the details of osseous tissue- osteons, fibrocartilage, the cells in bones and what they do, the structure of bone, how bone is formed- there are two ways, how bone heals itself, what the names of the types of bone fractures are, the joints in the body, what type of joints are they, how do they move, and how are they articulated together... and oh so much more. Is this making you feel overwhelmed? I totally was. I studied constantly. It was SO MUCH to remember. And to only be asked 80 questions to cover all that material. It was frustrating.
Also, this month things have started to warm up, so my allergies are just going wild! I am not winning the fight against them, either. My body has become accustomed to so many types of allergy medications, I can't find one that works for me. Benadryl is working for me these days, but it also makes me a little bit drowsy and it only works for so long. It also doesn't always help my nasal congestion. So, I've got Mucinex for that. The sinus pressure in my face- particularly my frontal, ethmoid, and sphenoid sinuses (see, I'm learning something!) caused a migraine yesterday. Its not always that painful, but pretty much always present. Mega harsh, man!
Now, I know I did a lot of complaining and sounding negative in this blog. I'm not planning on letting that continue. I am determined to make the month of April much better. I may be starting from scratch on the exercise. I may be starting from scratch on the nutrition. But, I can't do nothing about it anymore. I miss working out and having that outlet for stress. I miss eating foods that make me feel good. I don't want to live with this nothingness anymore. I want to be a runner SO BAD. I'm determined. I'm going to make it happen.
And to leave you with some photos:
Louie in his cone of shame. Still, he was so happy to be home!
Watched the sun rise one early yard sale morning.
My favorite holiday meal- St. Patrick's Day! Corned beef & cabbage, colcannon, vegetables, brown bread with Kerrygold butter!
Tamarindo apple preparada! (Meaning with other goodies in it- Japanese peanuts and some sort of chewy candy, drizzled with chamoy)
Allergies- 1 ... Jill- 0
I stand with all the other ladies who aren't ashamed of running in tutus!