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Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Hi all....Its been awhile.

All this time I have been off track...I have been struggling with depression, stress and just lazyness...and using food for comfort...

I have been eating alot of sweets and fast food and just generally eating alot.

And now I have started to gain back what I lost. I'm back to feeling tired all the time and my body aching. Also being lazy and not doing much of anything.

I have learned some things though, I have learned that food is just as much of an addiction as cigarettes and things like that. Just as my sister smokes to sooth her nerves or to feel relaxed when stressed...I eat to feel better, to distract when stressed. I know why I struggle.

If I look back when I started this journey, I was doing so well for those 8 months because there was no real stress, everything was going very well...I started having trouble when my husband got so sick after hernia surgery with his gull bladder, the holidays, and the stress that is going on with my side of the family.

I know why I started struggling, because food is what I use to get through stress and I have to find another way of dealing with stress. I have to find a way to deal with stress without using food.

I'm not sure what that will be but I will be working on that. I am tired of going down this road...I don't want to gain it all back and I don't like how I've been feeling.

So today is a new day. Today is the day I get back on track. No more small steps. No more small goals. That isn't working for me...so today I take a HUGE step. I am starting back on track COMPLETELY. I will be doing a cleansing time like I did the first time I began this diet. The cleansing time is 30 days.

30 days of only the diet, no sweets, stay completely on track with no deviation...this will clean my body back out of sugar...it will also allow my stomach to shrink...It will be a hard 30 days cause I will struggle with sugar cravings and feeling hungry....but I know that at the end, it will be so much better. I will feel better, have more energy and won't be so hungry. Also anything sweet will taste too sweet and make me sick to my stomach...

The stress hasn't stopped, there are still things going on. Hubby is doing better but he has another surgery coming up...so that is stressfull too...but I am going to work really hard on finding another way to deal with the stress and not food. I guess this 30 days may help with that too.

So this is DAY ONE...so far I had breakfast and am on track...

My norm weigh in is Friday's but I weighed in today to start getting back on track...

307.0

I will be trying to blog my progress each day of the 30 days...

Thank you my friends for all the support and encouragment and not giving up on me!
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  • THEGROOVYCHICK
    I also believe food can be an addition, especially sugar. I really struggle with sweets too. You can do this! emoticon emoticon
    2260 days ago
  • BELLAVIDA333
    You can do this! The first few days will be hard, just tell your self "this, too, shall pass". I have struggled my whole life with emotional eating which turns into food addiction. Also, sugar and wheat have been shown to be very addictive because of the hormones they release in your brain. You are on the right track and you will succeed!
    2260 days ago
  • ZANNACHAN
    *hugs* sorry that you are still struggling with stress! That's hard. But you have a plan--you can do this!
    2260 days ago
  • FITNHEALTHYKAL
    So many wise and caring words Tammy. No one can do it for you but we can be WITH you and your transparency and putting it all out there is admirable and makes me cry. I know that wasn't easy to do. Give up on you? AS IF! You've got this and we are right here walking beside you.

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    2260 days ago
  • DIEGOGAL1
    Great blog Tammy, remember all of us are here for you, I am here for you now as always, we can do this one day at a time... together. Hugs, Donna
    2260 days ago
  • MCFITZ2
    So good to hear from you. emoticon Thank you for being so honest with your challenges.
    You are resuming your journey. emoticon I know the detour is discouraging, but you recognize what happened and are looking for a way to prevent it happening again.
    What do you do that reaches into your creative soul? Music, reading, painting, writing, gardening? Try to discover it or them and use that force to deal with stress.
    For me it is my gardening and being outside and reading and photography when the seasons are indoor times.
    If I were a rich woman (da emoticon da da da da da emoticon da) I would go to the beach. But I'm not.
    I know you can do this. It is not an all or nothing. It it is focusing on your goals and when things get messed up keeping that focus and getting back on track. Just as you are doing now. emoticon
    2261 days ago
  • BABIESTEPS
    Thank you for being so very open and honest! Your are on the right track! Sometimes just putting things down and reading it, is enough to get that fire started! You have had GREAT SUCCESS in the past. But like you said this is emoticon of your NEW JOURNEY! Good Luck to you!
    emoticon Be Your Focus! emoticon
    2261 days ago
  • WALKINGBYFAITH2
    Stay strong, my friend! You know that you can do it because you have done it before. And you also know that you are the only one who can do it for you. We are here for support, but you got this! emoticon
    2261 days ago
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    Pinky: My heart bleeds for you, it IS so hard. Food is the one addiction that we can't give up! If anyone can do it though, you can. We know how strong you are. So emoticon on track.
    2261 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    Way to go, take each day at a time, and you will be at 30 days before you know it
    2261 days ago
  • 4CYNDI
    **HUGS** I understand the stress eating, because I do that. I keep trying to find something that works for me. I have found things I can use in the short term, but... well, I keep slipping back to that old comfort... food. It has been a major coping crutch for so many years that I have to continually think about how better to deal with stress and the lazies.

    Wishing you all the best and may your husband's surgery go swiftly and fix all the problems. May his recovery be steady and permanent.

    I truly admire you for choosing this time, today to make that change.
    2261 days ago
  • LADYSTARWIND
    Welcome back to your Journey! For indeed that what this is...and like all journeys, it doesn't always go as we intended. But if we keep our goals in sight, and back them with consistent, small actions, we will get there!

    I believe with your self-honesty and awareness of what caused the pause in your Journey, You Can Do This!

    Wishing you great emotional energy and confidence as you decide on your path these next few days! We will be "here" for you!!
    patti
    2261 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2014 2:29:58 PM
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