I've been going through my blogs over the last few months and there seems to be a running theme: I'm finding it hard to stay on track.
I've taken a moment to think about it and realised that I need to be a bit more honest with myself and a whole lot kinder- of course I'm finding things hard! I've just changed my entire lifestyle. Nothing is familiar!! Of course it's hard!!
Even though I'm living a dream, so to speak, it doesn't take away that this dream is different to the daily life that I was leading half a year ago. So, by default, it is involving a whole lot of adjustment. Nothing that I do at the moment really allows me to slip into auto-pilot (except jogging - it is now not only physical exercise, but complete stress relief, too) So, it makes sense that I'm feeling more tired and less motivated. Dreams, when they hit the earth, do involve a fair bit of hard work!
This is the state of things:
I've signed up for a half marathon in April. Training is all on track, and I just need to keep injury free, and stick to my programme. I'm excited about the race, and am glad that it is getting warmer.
I'm aiming for a 30 day yoga streak. Perhaps I need to be a bit kinder though. I'll start with a 5 day streak goal and build up from there. So far, my longest streak has been 4 days
My weight is just jumping up and down. This is because my eating habits are pretty erratic. I'm still within my 3% range, but only just. The only solution here is to start tracking again, so I'll aim for a 5 day streak here, too, ultimately building up to 30 days, but I think I need tracking to become a regular habit for me again. Tracking will help me find the routine that I need in my eating patterns and will also open my eyes to what foods have slipped into my diet that are higher in calories than I realise.
Sometimes I like to think that I'm coping marvellously with everything, when, actually I'm not. I think that may be what my roller coaster weigh-ins are trying to tell me. It's time to stop and nurse myself along a little bit more. Of course it's hard, but that doesn't mean giving up, it just means slowing down a little, becoming a little bit more patient and taking the time to get used to all this newness in my life.