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Not Where I Want To Be, But Closer Than I Was

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

I'm not where i want to be in my weight loss but i am a lot closer than i was. There are many times when i start to think about how far i still have to go and it gets discouraging. I started with a weight of over 320lbs. I didn't really want to weigh myself and I only weighed myself after i had lost some weight so i don't know what my true starting weight or heaviest weight was/is. That was back in 2011. I'm currently sitting at 256.8lbs. It's taken me over 3 years to lose 63.2lbs. Mind you that in that 3 years i probably did nothing for a year and a half.

My goal weight right now is 159lbs BUT i'd be happy living in the 159-180lb range. I've been down to 180 back when i was 22yrs old (15yrs ago). I still have 97.8lbs to lose for me to reach my goal. That's MORE than what i've already lost to date. Looking at it from this angle it seems so disheartening.

But a little while back i decided to change my mind set. I'm not going to dwell on needing to lose almost 100 more pounds. Instead i will focus on the next 6.8lbs and after hat i'll look at every 10lbs until i reach my goal.

While I'm not where i'd like to be I'm so very proud of where I am. This ME of today is enjoying life so much more than the me of yesterday. I can move so much easier. I can breathe when i reach the top of the stairs. I can live life so much more comfortably than i ever have been able to.

That first picture was taken in 2012 and i ONLY ran across the finish line when the picture was snapped. The second picture was just a few months ago and i actually ran/walked the entire 5k!

I know that as long as i keep moving i will continue to improve and will continue to lose the weight. I know many people would love to snap their fingers and be at their goal weight. But not this girl. I need to learn what works for me and all along the way i'm adapting to the changes and capabilities my body is making. So slow weight loss is welcomed in my book.

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    Wow! You are doing great! I love the path you are taking and it is definitely working for you. I am a firm believer in taking it one day at a time and not looking to far ahead. Short term goals that are doable add up to big results!

    1855 days ago
    You look so brave in that first picture. And so much happier in the second! So that's how I think of you: BRAVE and HAPPY!
    1858 days ago
    That's great, Vickie! I also plan to lose my combined overall goal weight in about 2 years or so.

    So glad you have very realistic expectations concerning the time frame. Your route is definitely a very healthy route because you're going at it in a way where you are enjoying the journey as well.

    Have a good week!

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    1859 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Instead of looking at the 98 lbs you want to lose, make your first goal of 9-10 lbs. That is 10% of you loss and seems much more easy to attain. You are doing great. I have been at this for over 20 years of weight loss and had courted 400 lbs numerous times. I told myself as long as I wasn't 400 I could control it. And I bet within the last 20 years I lost over 100 lbs about 8 or 9 times. Now the weight is affecting my health and I have to take it seriously. I started at 387 and am down to 330 and I don't plan on stopping until I see at least 225! My real goal is 190, but my doctor told me to be realistic. But look at your successes and tell your self that you have done this much and you are capable of so much more! Keep doing the before/after pics. I find them to be the most useful for me to show the loss. Because we look at ourselves and don't really see the changes as others do. emoticon
    1859 days ago
    You are Awesome !!!! emoticon
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  • TIGER_LILY_613
    Rock on !!! emoticon
    1859 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
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    1859 days ago
    Great attitude!! emoticon
    1859 days ago
    You may have more weight to lose than you've already lost but LOOK at the tools you have now that you didn't have in the beginning!! You can do it - one day at a time!! Any time you get discouraged just LOOK at your before and now pictures - you look awesome!! I'm betting you FEEL a 100 times better too - because you are changing your health and fitness! Its not just about a number on the scales - its about your LIFE!!

    You have proven you can do ANYTHING you set your mind to - I believe in you!!! emoticon emoticon
    1860 days ago
    I really needed this blog today!! I was having a down moment thinking about how far I still have to go instead of appreciating the strides I've made.
    Thanks for sharing.
    1860 days ago
    Every single pound lost in my opinion is considered a victory. If only weight were as easy to take off as it was to put it on. Even if you aren't losing, you are still taking steps towards a healthier life style, and that is something to celebrate!
    1860 days ago
    really love that last poster.can i nab it,lol.i think you have not only done amasing vickie love but you also have an amasing attitude which will take you all the way. emoticon
    1860 days ago
    your journey shows passion, self love, ambition, and determination. You have come so far and yes if you think about it the wrong way it will seem worthless to still have so much to loose after ALL you've already lost but you are strong, smart, and beautiful! You are awesome keep rocking life!!!!!
    1860 days ago
    You have come so far! Way to go! And I have to say, if you are 37, you have to be the most youthful looking 37-year-old! I would have guessed you still in your lower 20's, and I mean that in the best way :) You look great. Young and glowing.
    1860 days ago
    You rock!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1860 days ago
    Just in case nobody has told you yet today: you ROCK!!!

    I just love that you are choosing your own path and your own priorities, and are OWNING every single step of the way. You just exude joy, and it's joy that you've earned.

    Thanks for sharing your journey here - and your joy at focusing on the journey and not just the "destination".
    1860 days ago
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