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Saturday, March 15, 2014

I've been "muddling" through my days. I know I said I would be back Sparking, but I haven't been doing that. I know I am in a funk....normal/natural under the circumstances, but I don't like where I am at. I was so used to being "in control" and now my emotions have taken over (not all of the time). Been reading articles/books on grieving, looking for some guidance. This is helping. Tried to get back into my scheduled lifestyle....found that my/our schedule is not the way to go....Got to find a new schedule for me... will be working on that. Actually started today we will see where this leads me. Over all I am doing OK. (I think) eating so-so, water intake so-so exercise lacking but doing some most days. I am a survivor of many things throughout my life that I know there will be a light at the end of this tunnel.
Thank you for all of your ongoing support, especially those who "pop" in every week to add a little sunshine to my day. ((HUGS)) B
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    Barb, you've been a good friend to me, here, on SP and I've been keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I wish there was more I could do to ease your pain, but I have to leave that within my faith in the Lord's hands. I do hope Sparking continues to be part of your new schedule - I'd miss you otherwise. :) You are loved and missed, but respected enough to be allowed your own time.

    1523 days ago
    Hi Barb,

    So glad to hear from you. You have been in my thoughts and prayers! I'm here for you if and when you need. Small steps - one at a time......

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    1524 days ago
    Awwww, hugs to you and a song. emoticon Lean on me. When your not strong and I'll be your friend. I'll help you carry yyy on nnn! Whoa it won't be long gg when I'm gonna need somebody to lean on. So just call on me sister, if you need a hand. We all need somebody to lean on. emoticon Now if you ever saw the movie Milo and Otis... You would be Milo and I would be the singing bird. Milo swatting at the bird saying your singing stinks! emoticon

    I hope this put a little smile on your face and know I meant them words I just belted out!

    Love, hugs and many blessings,

    1526 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Taje care of yourself, Do tiny steps that make you feel better. I am keeping you in my prayers.

    1527 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    I think of you every single morning as I am going into work and I pray a special prayer for you and your family at the same time I pray a special prayer for the friend that passed recently and her family. You are never far from my thoughts and I pray for the peace and acceptance and the new normal that you will find.
    I know that it must hurt like crazy to get up each day and face reality but you are a survivor and you will get thru this with Chet watching over you.
    Know that myself and so many other friends are thinking about you and praying for you every single day!
    Stay strong and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!
    Big hugs to you!!!!
    1528 days ago
    Just do what is right for you and the rest will follow.
    1528 days ago
    Barb, take your time in figuring out what changes you want to make in your life. Don't try to rush the process of grieving. My husband has only been gone six and a half weeks and I'm still busy with the business side and paper work. I haven't begun to think about other changes.
    1528 days ago
    I'm glad that you are in the process of healing. It takes a long time. You have to find the path that is right for you. emoticon
    1528 days ago
    Barb-You are in my thoughts and prayers. From what I have been told there are 5 stages of grief. It takes people different amounts of time to get through them. Take care of you. emoticon
    1528 days ago
    You are trying to get through one of the worst things a person can ever face. You will find your way and make a schedule that works for you. Time will help. You are never alone, HUGS!
    1528 days ago
    You are in my heart and in my prayers. emoticon emoticon
    1528 days ago
    ((((HUGS)))) my dear! It is very difficult to go thru everything you've been thru. You know, is there a hospital near-by? The reason I ask is sometimes may have a grief support group that meets there periodically, if you think that would help.

    Just know you're in my thoughts and prayers.

    1528 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Thinking of you.
    1528 days ago
    Monday nights at church they have a class called Grief Share. Is there anything like this in your area? Are you letting yourself be around others?
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    Thanks for sharing
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  • NEPTUNE1939
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