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feeling depressed

Saturday, March 15, 2014

I'm close to 50 pounds down. I should be happy and proud. Don't get me wrong I am but that's not all I am. I'm grossed out by what I see in the mirror daily. The flab on my belly I can't get past how I feel. I realize this journey is not just getting healthy in my body but I have tons of work to do with how I think and look at myself.
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  • -DAVE-
    Love yourself unconditionally. You need to...

    2544 days ago
    Stay strong girl. You need to look at the positives....your almost 50 pounds, your healthier, you can move better, and many more. Maybe you need to sit down and make a list of positive reason for losing weight and a list of negative ones. I am sure the positive ones will really out way the negative ones. Keep up the great work and the accomplishment you have already done.
    2544 days ago
    Just look at how far you have come!!! Keep your head up girl!
    2545 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Been feeling similar, just don't mention it much.
    I might never have a model body, but smaller and so much more able to do things.
    I think winter did not help anyone this year. . .

    Try not to be too hard on yourself.
    Let's slump along together and get past this ...
    2545 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/15/2014 11:32:08 PM
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    emoticon You've come so far and accomplished a significant weight loss. You are awesome, beautiful and we are all here for you.
    2545 days ago
  • REBBUL67
    You really just have to visualize the person you WANT to see in the mirror. It is really hard getting the negative thoughts out your head when you are feeling that way, but you really, really need to look at that 50# gone....that is 5, 10# bags of potatoes!!!!!! That would be like me losing one of my ChowChows off of my body. That is a HUGE accomplishment. I am VERY PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!! emoticon You are AMAZING!!!!!
    2545 days ago
    I hit that milestone seems like all my big milestones I get into a slump...we can do this!!! Chin up, smile big, YOU'VE GOT THIS!
    2545 days ago
  • no profile photo CD13674406
    When you mentioned, "I'm grossed out by what I see in the mirror daily" it just broke my heart. I had this negative mind chatter going on in my head at one time but then I had to change my whole outlook on life as I saw that it wasn't serving me or the lifestyle I truly wanted.

    What I did was every time I wanted to beat myself up, I would silently scream, "I DISIDENTIFY" and then immediately move onto something, anything, that had absolutely nothing to do with that thought. Even preplanning it like making yourself come on SparkPeople and offering support or reading an informative article. Pretty soon, that negative self-talk changes. Fight the good fight! You are worth it.
    2545 days ago
    Lisa, awww I am so sorry you are feeling his way today. I know sometimes you just have to work through those feelings.

    Some people write a pro and con list about their body image. The pro list usually wins because there is stuff like " my legs are strong, my teeth are white and even, my arms are strong, my heart beats hard, my feet carry me far, my rings still fit, My eyes shine bright, I can hear my kids (dogs, birds, wind, etc.), I can feel the wind when I walk, I can see the beauty in nature when I walk, I have a skeleton system that keeps me upright) .I know for me, this beats the crap out of my belly hangs low, my arms could make helicopter blades, my butt is too big (more cushion to sit on). I hope you can work rough this panther pal. emoticon emoticon emoticon TC
    2545 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/15/2014 10:36:53 AM
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    I know how you feel but you are maig the right choices and soon ou will have the body you want
    2545 days ago
    You have done an amazing job! Keep up the good work and remember how truly amazing you are!
    2545 days ago
    One day at a time. You will work it out. Just don't let it stop you in your tracks. Chin up!
    2546 days ago
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