Ruts & Excuses! March 5
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
Ruts & Excuses! March 5.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of excuses. I’ve been hiding in my little rut and once I get into that rut, I call it my comfort zone. It’s my place of comfort, my safe spot, my zone or bubble somewhat of self-protection. I can squeeze myself into this spot for a while and refuse to come out until I find balance inside. That’s been my excuse. Balance!
Balance, has been my excuse since January, but it has been my main focus since 2012. Now, the focus has become my excuse. I’m flipping out with this balance thing. I think my balance, my space, and everything in this space has a lot to do with what’s going on. Well, that’s what I thought, and then it all fell down on me today. I have not really grieved the passing of my uncle Joe.
I would start to and then I would tuck it down. Trying to keeps it together, trying to be hard. I’ve lost a lot of loved ones in the past few years, and I haven’t really grieved any of the losses. I think that’s what got me, because when my uncle Joe passed, I do believe that one is the one that took the cake. I really started to numb myself, tuck myself away, and I went to food again, my comfort zone.
Now, I’m dealing with life. No! I’m not dealing with life, I’m just tucking and making excuses, but now that must stop. I must go on with my life, do the things I sat out to do and stop looking for excuses to place the blame on.