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Ruts & Excuses! March 5

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

Day 25

Ruts & Excuses! March 5.

I’ve been dealing with a lot of excuses. I’ve been hiding in my little rut and once I get into that rut, I call it my comfort zone. It’s my place of comfort, my safe spot, my zone or bubble somewhat of self-protection. I can squeeze myself into this spot for a while and refuse to come out until I find balance inside. That’s been my excuse. Balance!

Balance, has been my excuse since January, but it has been my main focus since 2012. Now, the focus has become my excuse. I’m flipping out with this balance thing. I think my balance, my space, and everything in this space has a lot to do with what’s going on. Well, that’s what I thought, and then it all fell down on me today. I have not really grieved the passing of my uncle Joe.

I would start to and then I would tuck it down. Trying to keeps it together, trying to be hard. I’ve lost a lot of loved ones in the past few years, and I haven’t really grieved any of the losses. I think that’s what got me, because when my uncle Joe passed, I do believe that one is the one that took the cake. I really started to numb myself, tuck myself away, and I went to food again, my comfort zone.

Now, I’m dealing with life. No! I’m not dealing with life, I’m just tucking and making excuses, but now that must stop. I must go on with my life, do the things I sat out to do and stop looking for excuses to place the blame on.
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  • STR458
    emoticon life style change is a lifetime of changing one's style.... sometimes quickly sometimes slowly every morphing .... maybe you slowed down, no worries, it's never really over
    2056 days ago
  • AJB121299
    keep moving forward
    2056 days ago
    So true! I have let my excuses get me into a rut as well, and a rut as somebody once said, is a grave with the ends knocked out. Let's get out of the rut together.
    2056 days ago
    Oh my dear, dear friend, Lynn, I hear you loud and clear! Comfort zone, comfort zone, oh ya, I've been in that too all of 2013 and up to now in 2014! It's my rut too. I've lost 67# since 9/11 and have gained 15# back since the end of 2012. Little by little and here I am. I feel so low, so ashamed, so worthless, and yet I know that I can be proud of how much I still have off, of all that I've done to get this amt. off. And I know what to do to lose weight. I know, I have all the answers, it's just a matter of getting out of this rut and doing it. I lost my sweet sister to obesity along with Diabetes and that's what lit a fire under me and got me on the right track. I have to try to get that gumption back and break free from these chains that bind me. That sugar that calls me, that over-eating of portions of good food too. Not just junk! I can over-eat good food and then it adds up to too much on the calorie ranges. Like every day for so long. It does get so frustrating, doesn't it??!! But the main thing is that we don't give up as I know that you've felt within yourself too, like me, we'll keep at this until one day our day will come where we know that these chains are breaking loose and we're being freed! emoticon emoticon I love ya, girl! emoticon emoticon
    2056 days ago
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