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Good to be back, but what's the point of continuing?

Saturday, March 01, 2014

Hi everybody,

As some of you know I have been fairly busy over the past couple of weeks completing a commission which proved to be a larger project than the one I was expecting.

The commission was to write a set of 24 piano pieces one in each of the twelve major and minor keys in a romantic minimalist style with a rage of difficulty from the grade five level to a diploma level. The completed project consists of 140 pages of piano score and when played from beginning to end the pieces in total have a duration of just under two hours. I have so far played several of them in public at Killerton house, a national trust property just a few miles north of Exeter that proudly possesses a very nice concert Bechstein piano that members of the public who can play are allowed to do so. Six of the new pieces I performed there were met very enthusiastically by an unsuspecting public who until they asked me had no idea that I had written them. Jane and my three children were also there mixing with members of the public whilst I was performing them getting general opinions, listening to their comments and they all seemed to be very favourable. This has in due course added more confidence for me in these pieces so part of me knows they should be warmly received when they are delivered.

I have had many nights working to three and four in the morning getting this task competed and consequently have not managed to get into here in order to see how things have been going. Until this project took over I had been in here virtually every day since the beginning of September so you can imagine I have really quite missed you all. The messages I have received from you all have been lovely and encouraging as well as caring and supportive and for this I cannot thank you all enough.

Also today has been the 1st of March and it marks a year since I started doing something physically about my weight loss. Now admittedly my weight has plateaued since Christmas and it feels as if I have not made any progress since then it can be very easy to begin to think negatively about things not working any more and then thinking "What's the point of continuing?" Having plateaued for this long it is a question I have had to keep on dealing with almost every day, especially when after another week I know things have yet again not changed for the better.

As I have now been on this for a year I feel I have now got a somewhat bigger picture and when I look at that picture and compare how I am today to how I was this time last year then the improvements in my life give me every reason to have every point to want to continue this.

Even if I go another year plateauing the quality of the health I have today is so much better than it was a year ago.

A year ago - I weighed 90 pounds more than I do today.

A year ago - My waist was 12 inches larger than it is today.

A year ago - I got out of breath walking upstairs at home - today I can run up my stairs.

A year ago - My knees hurt when I walked down stairs, today my knees are fine.

A year ago - Owing to my sweet tooth Strawberries tasted bitter, today they are very sweet.

A year ago - My shirt size was 19.5, it is a size 17 today.

A year ago - I could only buy clothes in oversized shops - I can shop anywhere today.

A year ago - I was ashamed of my appearance - today I am rather happy with it.

A year ago - My diabetic risk was very high, today it is moderate to low.

A year ago - I needed seat-belt extensions when I flew anywhere - today I don't

This is just ten - but I could easily extend this list to over a hundred without thinking too hard about it.

I no doubt some of you from time to time have asked yourself "What's the point of continuing?"

If you have I can highly recommend you do what I have done and look at the bigger picture. No matter how slow things move at times never take your eye off where you could have been if you never started to try to make a difference from the way you were in the first place. Owing to a decision you have made in the past to improve your situation you are today in a better situation than you were then, not only physically in your body, but mentally within your mind.

Now I am back in here I look forward to commenting on a lot of your blogs that I have not done over the past two weeks and getting back with you all and catching up with everybody.

Cheers and special love to you all,

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  • EJB2801
    And now we are almost to the end of March, but I just read your post. I, too, have plateaued since Christmas. It is good to see your list of "what's the point." I have not had dramatic changes. Still, I am relatively sure that had I not begun to work on my health and using SparkPeople's tools, I would have had plenty of detrimental changes during this long cold winter in northeastern USA.

    Thanks for sharing your music. I often wish I had more time just to enjoy listening to music and especially to make music more often. It's a treat to hear what you have created.
    2493 days ago
    Hello! I haven´t "met" you before as it was long since I visited the Music makers team... I am impressed by your work both with your weight loss and your music! So far I have just listened to the last part of the oboe concert but I will listen to it all because I really liked it!

    Well done indeed! emoticon
    2495 days ago
    Wow! This was great to read, and so inspirational!
    2498 days ago
  • G33K10V3
    You've done great Trev! The reason you should continue is the SAME reason you started! emoticon emoticon
    2499 days ago
    emoticon You are inspiring in so many ways! Congratulations on all your achievements. Thanks for your encouraging words.
    2500 days ago
  • BOPPY_
    Great progress with limited time to focus.


    Lee emoticon
    2502 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/16/2014 1:35:39 AM
    You are my hero!!! I've been looking for your blogs and felt something was up, but what joy to know that it was the season of creative endeavors. thanks for sharing and congratulations on such progress!!I'm still at my program and determined to see it through! Keep Sparkin!
    2504 days ago
  • ANDI_3K
    Welcome Back! Congrats on the Commision and thanks for the inspiration
    2506 days ago
  • INSH8P
    What a commission! A wonderful opportunity that does not "fall from the sky" every day… I am so glad that you were both ready and willing to take this on.

    Were you going to add: the mental stamina and higher flow of creativity that comes with improved health. I have definitely found that creative juices flow even more when body is in better balance. And the way that you describe being up into the early morning hours -- oh, yes; we've been there. It goes with the territory of finishing a major work, with public performance of a work that's been prepared for a length of time. And look, Trev -- you've done both of those with this one commission project. Many shouts and best wishes for the first stage of this project (quite successful, I'm so glad that you are happy with the results thus far). And more warm thoughts as the possibilities for publishing become clearer.

    InSh8pR> emoticon emoticon
    2513 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/5/2014 6:07:04 AM
    emoticon On everything you've accomplished over the past year. emoticon emoticon
    2514 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5826188
    emoticon emoticon Playing at Killerton sounds really great. Glad to hear your music was well received and you can look at the bigger picture. Sounds like you have come a long way in a year!

    2516 days ago
    Congratulations on your successful commission. it is perfectly understandable that you had to dip off while you were hard at work on this. Thanks for the reminder about the real reasons we do this . . . the weight loss is not the end in itself, it is the benefits that are associated with it. It is a measurement true enough, but not the only one. I have been at a plateau for a few months and during this brutal winter it was a struggle not to return to old habits. I don't want to go back to dreading the seat belt extension, the poor sleep, and the lack of energy that were part of that life. Best wishes for continued success and thanks for sharing with us all.
    2516 days ago
  • RDEE22
    Welcome back! What an achievement writing that music you are emoticon .

    Congratulations on the new healthy you!!! emoticon
    2516 days ago
    emoticon I think your music must be beautiful. emoticon emoticon
    2516 days ago
  • SUNSET09
    emoticon No matter what our attitude is, we will continue, whether it's to be healthy or keep status que. We matter and you were able to complete your commission which was a big task, you can put your energy into a lifestyle change! What an accomplishment on both counts! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2517 days ago
    emoticon I've missed you. Your project sounds incredible and I'm thrilled (but not surprised) to hear that it was well received.
    emoticon emoticon What a challenge you have taken on and met in your music!!

    And your reasons for staying are very well-written and I can tell you've given them a lot of thought. It is an amazing weight loss and the health benefits are even better. I'm glad you will be around longer, not only on SP, but on the planet sharing your music and love of music with the whole world!!
    emoticon Dear Trev!!
    2517 days ago
  • 123ELAINE456
    Awesome Blog. Welcome Back!!! You are Amazing!!! Great Job!!! Keep Pushing Forward!!! Never Quit or Give Up!!! You Can Do It!!! God Blessings Always. Have a Wonderful Week. Spark On!!!
    2517 days ago
    emoticon you were missed!

    GREAT job!!!

    2517 days ago
    glad to have you back although I have been gone myself ! lol My reason for continuing is that I just cant give up , Its not an option . for me it signifies more then just weight on my body but weight on my mind , its easy when you get to a point where your comfortable with just a little extra weight and its hard to convince yourself to keep going but I want to achieve a goal I set for myself Thank you Trev for your reasons and you do inspire a lot of people :)
    2517 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Wow, that is a lot of composing you are doing. So glad people like it and you get to try it out in public. You are so talented.

    Glad you are sticking with the program and Sparkpeople.
    I am prone to plateauing, but never give up!

    My frustration is that all my weight so far is coming just from the sides of my tummy!
    Funny huh? So my clothes still fit after over 30 lbs lost. My measurements are the same!
    I know in due time after the tummy goes, the rest will reduce. And yes, I notice health benefits and less pain.

    I'm still grinning thinking about you performing your music !!
    It is very cold here, colder than normal. Below 0 F... Sunday maybe -11F.
    Just crazy cold and not normal at all for us. Usually it is high 46F/low 20F.
    So much for global warming. ha ha.
    2517 days ago
  • _BABE_
    It's great to see you back. You have done so well and you should be proud. Proud that despite you schedule of composing you managed to just plateau and not gain...that is tremendous!

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    2517 days ago
    You are awsome AND amazing! You STILL inspire me! You rock, get the picture?
    Thank you for being YOU!!!!!

    I love, yes, truly!
    *~LIGHT emoticon
    2517 days ago
    Trev, so nice to have you back and blogging. I learn so much from long as you don't expect any musical talent, alas. My mother was a musician of sorts, playing 4 instruments. I did not get that gene.

    Each Friday when I have to post weight on my challenge page, I review where I was when I started this challenge. Today when I reported my weight, I looked at where I was when I created my *SPARK* Restart Plan...and was shocked when I realized that in 9 months I eliminated (lost implies it can be found) 23 lbs. Is that a lot per week? No, but it is still 30 lbs lighter...and like you, I can breathe again! Even John has noticed.

    We continue on this journey...together.

    2517 days ago
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