A lot on my plate (not food).
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
I am having an emotionally draining week.
Started off the week with some major tension and drama at work. I sincerely hope that we can find a way to work through all of this because I truly don't want to have to start looking for a job elsewhere.
Then I get a call that yet another friend of mine is pregnant. To be honest, there is only one person I know right now who is pregnant and it truly doesn't bother me. It's not that I am not happy for these people, but it is really quite difficult on me and my husband given our situation. I am just mentally and emotionally tired from having to constantly put on a happy face all the time.
Add to all of that the general frustration and anxious feelings permeating everything at home with the poor job market and the impossibility of finding a job where we live. I truly don't want to have to move again, but I am beginning to really see that we may have no other options. This makes me so sad. I love where I live. It is the first time in my entire life where I finally feel like I truly belong somewhere and that I am honestly making a difference here in my community. It will break my heart to have to go.