In that moment…I’m always inspired.
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
I recently stumbled upon Ali Vincent’s, the winner of the Biggest Loser season 5, show and have been catching up on the season. I have to watch it on my iPad as it is not on a station I get on TV. It has worked out better this way anyways as I can get on my treadmill and watch it while I walk and run. Ali has since put back on some of the 112 pounds she lost and we see her as she deals with this and tries to get back on track.
One of the past week’s episodes had Ali’s mother, Bette-Sue, on it with her. Bette-Sue was also on the BL with Ali. Ali was running a half marathon with another woman, Carmen, who was overweight. Ali’s mother was not running but they would cut over to her for comments throughout. At one point Bette-Sue says she knows she should be running too with them and that while watching Ali…. “In that moment, I’m always inspired. And then I’m not”. Okay what??? STOP THE TREADMILL!! Rewind and play that again please. “In that moment, I’m always inspired. And then I’m not”. Did she say that or were those words coming from MY mouth. This is soooo me!!! How many times have I seen something, got inspired and then like a blinking light….the inspiration was gone. How many Biggest Loser shows have I watched and got inspired to right that minute start eating healthy, working out and to start dropping those pounds only to have the next commercial come on….. and I am in the kitchen getting myself a big scoop of ice cream?? How many infomercials have I seen for workout programs or DVDs or an ad for book and have ordered them psyched about starting the program or reading the book and when I receive them they sit there collecting dust?? The moment was gone. In that moment I was inspired…but then I wasn’t.
Wow…deep stuff here. My inner secret has been let out. I live for the moment. I live for that flicker of inspiration and then it is gone. Why is that? What makes me not hold on to the things that motivate me and keep me plugging on this journey? I do think I get myself overwhelmed with trying to find what will work instead of choosing one thing and seeing if that work.. It’s just that I want to do everything at once. I get excited. The inspiration just grabs me.
This is one of the things I need to work on….stringing together a lot of these moments. I need to not live in that one moment. I need to live in the momentS…lots of momentS….present and future in order to keep that inspiration alive and get to my ultimate goal. To do that I am going to simplify what I do. No more buying gadgets or books because I think aha THIS is the thing that is going to work. I have the tools already. I just need to be focused and use them and string together those moments of inspiration.