Wednesday, February 19, 2014
I am in love with this fellow who tells me I must lose weight before he finds me desireable. I have been seeing him for six months exclusively. We share meals and time together and he is affectionate to me. Interestingly or ironically since I am a Christian lady, premartial sex is not on the table. Lately he is suggesting that he might marry me but he insists I need to go through the process of losing weight. Needless to say, I am emotional eater and haven't been able to lose any weight since I find myself trying to quell my feelings of sexual frustration and rejection with food. I do believe I belong with this man and that this man needs me in his life because he is alone. He has led a life of being a Casanova and asserts he has never been attracted to heavy women and alas I am 150 pounds overweight. Worse, he has seen a picture of me from 40 years ago (when I was 25) and I weighed 140 pounds then. He wants me to look like that and then he could be attracted to me physically. He says he loves me and I am extremely attracted to him. I am wondering what kind of feedback I will get from this post because for the life of me I am baffled as to why I continue in this relationship except that I do have a need to be needed and this guy needs me.