New Year Streak
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
I feel like I should get back to blogging. Maybe doing so will help me find a healthier path than the one I've been on for the past several months.
I have nothing healthy to report. Well, except that my New Year streak is still alive.
Every year for the new year, I start a streak instead of making a resolution I know I won't keep. I usually give up going out to eat. In the past, I've made exceptions for going out when someone else is buying. This year I had to alter the restrictions a bit because I have a boyfriend and we go out to eat with some frequency and I have no interest in giving that up. I also am not going to make him pay every time.
So I decided that the stipulations of my streak would be how long I could go without fast food. So I had to come up with a defining line of what's fast food and what isn't. Taco Bell is obviously fast food. But is pizza? I considered, anything with drive thru would be considered fast food. But then there are some places that don't necessarily have a drive thru that I would still consider fast food, like Subway or Jimmy John's. Then S suggested that any place where you order your food at the counter, that's fast food. That ends up really limiting a lot of places. I wouldn't really consider Fuddruckers to be fast food, but by this standard, it is.
So I was doing well with avoiding fast food until Beechnut was in town and we hung out at Panera. I couldn't spend hours in their establishment without buying something. That broke that streak. Which was okay with me.
The truth is, my biggest weakness is that I often go to Taco Bell or Little Caesar's for lunch to get away from work. And my New Year's Streak is just an effort to break that cycle. And last year I was REALLY bad. Almost every day, Monday-Friday, I'd end up at one of those places for lunch. I thought that maybe I should make my streak to just not go out for LUNCH. But then the VP of our company offered to take me out a few times because we're working on this big project together... and free lunch. I've turned down the offer plenty of times, but I can't every time.
I still haven't gone out to Taco Bell or Little Caesar's for lunch yet this year. So I gave it some more thought and decided that my streak is: how long can I go without going out to eat by myself? Eating out is a treat and I need to be reminded of that. And it's working - sort of. My brother visited on Saturday and I immediately offered to get pizza when we hung out. Because I can't get pizza by myself, but if my brother is visiting, that's ok.
I'm not losing any weight and I would really like to. I've gained probably 10-15 pounds since I met S and I'm just uncomfortable in general. On one hand, I miss going out to Taco Bell almost every day. I'd get the same thing and it would satisfy me and I'd often skip dinner. Now, I feel like I'm hungry all the time. I'm snacking too much. Eating too much pasta. Eating junk in general that I just shouldn't. I need to get some lettuce and make salad for the spinner so it's handy. I need to make eggs for the mornings. And I need to eat dinner instead of snacking on crackers and BS around the house.
And I need to effing exercise! More than any of the food stuff. I just cancelled my membership at the gym, because I loathe the gym and haven't gone in nearly a year. I truly believe that when this dreadful snow clears, I WILL go out and run. I have ideas of things I could do at home and I do them every once in a great while. But nothing with any consistency. If I could just get into a groove and do something consistently, I think I'd feel a lot better.
In other news, things with S are great. I'm still stupid crazy about him. It blows my mind - I didn't realize I was capable of having this kind of relationship. And I am so grateful for it. All the time. Seriously. I feel like the luckiest person ever, just to be with him.