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I can do it!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

I've been playing around with the watercolor stuff I bought yesterday. I'm working on a painting of an eagle . . . I need to learn that it's okay to make mistakes, after all . . . I am at the beginning of this class. I am just beginning to learn.

Actually, this is pretty cool because I am learning a lot about myself. I find that I am still fighting that old perfectionist within me! Negative self-talk (stinking thinking). I don't want to make a mistake. I don't want to be bothered by practicing on a scrap piece of paper. (Did I really say I don't want to waste a piece of art paper!) Oh, dear! . . . does this sound all too familiar?????

I'm thinking there must be a common theme here. The same demands I used to put on myself when I started to diet, I'm dealing with now with this painting class.

And, once again, I see great opportunities for me to let go and break more of those old habits that are so deeply engrained in my head.

Just like my journey to health, I am running my own race, setting my own pace, preparing to cross my very own finish line.

I am only bound by the chains that I refuse to break and walk away from.

How cool. I have learned (thank you SparkPeople!) - I can do anything!

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    Lay back and enjoy it. Just a class. Just for you!
    1554 days ago
    When I have new students walk into my dance classes, and I see how frustrated they are about being beginners, I remind them that they are SUPPOSED to fail, they have to be new at it at the beginning, it is the ONLY way to learn and improve. It takes so much courage to do something badly and keep going, it is the only way. I am so proud of you for doing something new!
    1554 days ago
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    yup, if I'm not doing this perfectly-then I'm not doing it at all-thinking all or nothing, yikes! what pressure that is and I was doing it to myself !!!!! I definitely relate to blog today (very much) This sparkpeople format to weight management did A LOT to squelch some of that perfectionistic regulator inside me. ( I need to vlog about it )
    1554 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/17/2014 9:59:37 AM
    I think old habits die hard! Maybe it isn't so much the old perfectionist in you as it is the new you wanting to be the best you can be! I think it is very cool that you are trying something new. They say it keeps us young emoticon
    1554 days ago
    Love the part about obstacles. When you are on a trip and come to a washed out bridge or road closing, you don't turn around and come home. You find a detour. All journeys work that way.
    1554 days ago
    This is so insightful.

    You got down on yourself for a "scrap" piece of paper.

    The fear of punishment is in back of our need to be perfect.

    It's amazing what comes out of our minds when we let go.

    1555 days ago
    The hardest battle we have to fight is against ourselves. Recognition that we're the problem is the first victory.
    1555 days ago
    Very positive
    1555 days ago
    emoticon . The nice thing about paint, even water colour, is that if you don't like what you've done you can either add a little more paint and change it or throw it away and start over. In painting as in dieting and getting healthy, nothing is ever irretrievable You can always try again..
    1555 days ago
    Great attitude!
    1555 days ago
    What a wonderful way to express yourself . .. with painting. Enjoy! HUGS
    1555 days ago
    emoticon How wonderful you are taking a painting class! ........ Good pics you chose for a great blog too ........... And we can just 'kick' those obstacles out of the way .......... durned things! ........ emoticon oh and emoticon for the super nice comment on my blog! emoticon Your ol Bud ........
    1555 days ago
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