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Day One: Feeling TERRIBLE

Sunday, February 16, 2014

I am feeling really terrible emotionally. I am on day one without sugar. I am facebook accountable (since apparently trying to stay accountable on here doesn't seem to work well). I declared that I was on day one without sugar. Hopefully the public aspect of that will help me stay on track because my life got super unmanageable. Mikey bought me a ton of chocolate for Valentine's day and I ate it all within 24 hours. I was shaking and convinced I had diabetes, but still kept eating. What the f!

Anyway, I declared that today was day one, and I'm sticking to it, even though I feel miserable. I am so so so sooooooooo down, worst ever. I have vacation this week from school and I still have so much to do. I hate sounding like a big pity party, but I just have never felt this low.

I weighed myself and I gained 30 pounds since I got off track...in such a short period of time, too.

Whatever. I'm back. One day at a time. Here we go.
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  • EDDYMEESE
    Don't feel bad, it happens to all of us!

    You're still trying, and sometimes that's as good as you can do, even on a bad day. Be KIND to yourself!!! You are not a bad person for regaining or for breaking down.
    1584 days ago
  • STEVENKIND
    Tell Mikey to stop buying you sweets!
    1584 days ago
  • SHALOMFROMWOO
    Hang in there! Now is the moment. Don't beat yourself up and just move forward. It sounds like you are so very busy and stressed from that. This can contribute to crazy eating. Focus on one task at a time instead of being overwhelmed by the entire picture. I am in school as well as working full time. If I have a book that I need to finish what I will do is tell myself that I am going to read for an hour. After that hour I will move onto something else and give myself a pat on the back for the hour of reading. This is a strategy that really works with me.
    Tomorrow will be a better day. Focus on your achievements - however small. Break everything down into smaller tasks.
    You can do this! emoticon
    1585 days ago
  • AJCOUCH1963
    Dont feel bad I did the same thing now its time to get back on track and just focus on what needs to be done and pray to god every day. I have decided to go back on today too I have 48 pounds to lose by September 20th thats when my son gets married.
    1585 days ago
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