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Mini Update: Struggling

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Slightly Longer Update:

Still around - sort of. Been struggling with and losing myself in the desire to escape through overeating and overwatching TV. If y'all have read past blogs, it is the same old, same old stressors.

I haven't been doing much on Spark - or much self-care at all. I am trying to work on the 100 Day Challenge - am on Day 12 - Fuel or Filler. Haven't been going to the gym or even running consistently.

I was literally a half pound away from my goal weight the day before my husband lost his job in July. And the weight chart shows a fairly steady slope up about 20# since then.

Am thinking of going to doc now that we have medical insurance to see if my thyroid levels are out of whack.

And this interminable winter with endless cycles of deep freeze and snow is really, really getting to me. I know theoretically that Spring is coming because of the new products coming into my store. But the cold and the snow keep coming and coming.

I know that this eating and TV watching is not the answer, that it does not really work FOR me.

It seems like everything, every part of my life is an effort - I want something to be easy.
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    Don't give up! emoticon emoticon
    1860 days ago
    The struggle isn't on the outside, it's on the inside with our thoughts. Blaming what we use to avoid handling our fears is silly and we all do it. Until we stop. You have the tools to handle life and be on program. Self-sabotage helps no one. And, it doesn't make the fears and pain go away, they are still waiting to be recognized. LOOK at them calmly and simply start taking care of yourself better.
    1861 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Oh. My. 1/2 lb to goal!?
    Well a good start could be getting up during commercials and walking around or in place. Gotta get on the road back, right.

    Sorry the cold/snow is getting on your last nerve.
    It was/is but then we'd get one over 32 degree day and sun and a smile crept on to my face. Iowa has had more below zero this winter. Just not normal winter.

    Spark friends/groups have helped me keep focus better this year. I am not fast to shed weight and some times my thyroid is acting up. Doctor will not put me on medicine since I am still slowly losing. He does not feel my frustration.

    I do hope you find the encouragement you need.
    1861 days ago
    It is really frustrating when you get close to your goal and something happens and before you know it, you have lost ground. The "what if's" and the "should of" and the "could ofs" start to haunt you. If you are part of the human race, we've all been there. I remember my kids when they tried to learn something, it would be two steps forward and 1 backward. As most moms would do, is say that's ok, you're getting this . keep trying, I am proud of you.

    The best thing I have found admit it - ok I'm not where I should be or want to be.
    Today is a new day..Let's just start over! YOU'VE GOT THIS!
    1862 days ago
    The endless winter is acting on all of us. I'm not usually affected but this winter I think I am. Our weather hasn't been that bad, just unpredictable and up and down.
    You're still here, plugging along. That's what's important. You'll find your mojo again, I know it. emoticon
    1862 days ago
  • BECCA315
    Yeah, this nasty winter weather has been hard on everyone. But when spring does finally arrive, do you still want to be 20# overweight, feeling sluggish from too much food and TV? Or do you want to be ready to enjoy the great outdoors? Keep pushing! We're here, cheering from the sidelines!
    1862 days ago
    I think this winter has felt really long for a lot of people including me. One thing that helped me, is I made a rule that I would not watch tv or go on the computer until I completed my workout. I also dvr my programs and watch them at other times than when they air.

    Can't wait for Spring! Don't give up.

    1862 days ago
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