Wednesday, February 12, 2014
I see myself repeating so many patterns!! It's time to figure out how to break out. Last night, I did not want to run. Not one bit. I fought myself tooth and nail. The plan had been to run 6 miles, then I was going to blow it off altogether, and finally I talked myself into 4 miles. I didn't even like it until the last half mile. And then how did I reward myself? I ate ice cream. Not just a little half cup serving, a small cookies and cream shake. All that effort, thrown down the drain. I'm still happy I ran and I know I got more benefit than just burning the calories that I promptly ate back, but seriously K, why do you do this?
Both of these things are patterns, not wanting to do something when I feel like I "have" to and eating bad when I'm working out more. You can't out-exercise a bad diet. (And for anyone who is thinking that maybe I shouldn't train for things and therefore might cut out the "have to" attitude that trips me up, I don't usually work out nearly as much when I'm not training for something, overall it motivates me, I just have bad days)
Since I last blogged it's been a few steps in the right direction, a few in the wrong. Get a handle on one thing, lose it on another. I'm just going to keep trying and keep my eyes on the prize (me!!)