when maintenance is a victory
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
So for the past 4 weeks, I was working my tail off in the intensive care unit. The majority of my waking hours (>70 hours/week) were spent in a busy pediatric ICU- which left little time for me. Only 4 days off the entire month- most of which were spent converting to a week of working the night shift, and then converting back to working days.
Usually when I'm on a hard work month, I end up gaining weight back. Eating becomes a pursuit in the quick and soothing, as these months are so trying and stressful, and I'm surrounded by tragic situations.
Last weekend, we went to my in-laws for dinner, and people were commenting on my weight loss! In my mind, I had counted this past month as a failure, since I hadn't made any progress. But that's not at all true! I forgot that I have still lost about 17-20lbs (depending on the day) from my highest weight :) AND it's showing!!!
And then I went out to eat with my husband and ran into a friend I haven't seen in maybe a year or more. She also noticed my weight loss- specifically in my face :)
So, although I'm behind on my overall goal, I have not re-gained the weight I had previously lost, which is a HUGE victory compared to my past patterns.
So, now- for the first time EVER, I can move forward from a point of weight loss- not from a point of starting over!!!!!