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Wheat Belly author and the Best Question Ever

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

I'm so grumpy this winter. I can just tell that I'm depressed and desperate to be outside walking again. But I draw a limit to walking outside when there is a negative sign in front of the temperature. I'm a fan of four seasons and hate that I'm so grumpy this winter. I was actually looking forward to being outside more this winter, but not when there are warnings about frostbite. I'm not that crazy!

This past weekend I went to a women's health expo in Madison, WI. Learned a lot, met some good people and also listened to the author of Wheat Belly present some of his findings and information. Learned a lot through that presentation as well. I have been abusing my body again and this makes me want to get back on track even more.

But then on Sunday I woke up really depressed. Just not caring about much, slept in, which I try not to do, and I literally did nothing all day. I didn't cook for the week, I didn't do homework, nothing. I just was a lazy bum and the result of that was a huge panic attack Sunday night. Now I'm behind for my classes and was stressing about what I was going to eat for lunch and dinner during the week. I let the stress get to me, and woke up Monday feeling terrible, sore throat, upset stomach, low temperature. So I stayed home and ate junk food. Wow, that probably really helped my problems, right?

I know what I should do on any given day, but some days I just let the depression do the deciding for me. I knew I shouldn't spend the day on Sunday playing video games and I know that if I have games on my phone, then I play them. I just can't have that temptation around me, but ever since xmas, I've had games on my phone. Bad decision.

Thinking about my decisions before choosing the bad choice is something I should do way more often. There is a book called "The best Question ever" or something like that. It teaches that you ask "Given your past experiences, your present circumstances and your future goals, what is the wise decision?" Not what is the smartest decision or the best decision, but what is the wise decision because this is not as subjective as "best" or smartest." I just ignore this because I don't want to give up my junk food again.

But I don't have a choice. My jeans don't really fit anymore and I'm not buying any clothes in bigger sizes. It's time to get my butt in gear...literally!

Have a great day everyone!
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  • AMY_1217
    I understand completely. We know it's not good for us, we know it'll just make things worse, we know we should be beating that depression demon back with a big stick, but instead we succumb...I've done it a million times, and I'm sure I'll do it a million more unfortunately.
    The best we can do is forget about the bad choices we made yesterday and move on to today. And a little nice weather would go a LONG WAY in getting this stuff under control! lol I got a glimpse of spring Thursday....from about 6am till about 4pm we had all FOUR seasons! lol Unfortunately winter was the one that won out. I SO wished it would have been spring! lol
    Hang in there, you've made tremendous progress and will continue to. And by all means, do NOT buy bigger clothes! You're absolutely right, those jeans are now a serious motivator!
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    1549 days ago
    Oh gosh. You'll be fine. Just do what you need to do. Thanks for reflecting on what you need to change and by blogging it down. Just reflection and reassessment are the first steps to weight loss!

    Good job!

    Have a good weekend.

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    1558 days ago
    You can do it...I have faith in you. Thanks for talking about the question. I am going to try and remember this when I have decisions that need to be made.
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  • DALID414
    You know what to do
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