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February - Month of Love, Happiness and Sadness

Monday, February 10, 2014

This is a wonderful month where we express our love for all in our lives. Everyone is excited about St. Valentine's Day! Don't get me wrong so am I. I bought some cards to send my boy that are away in college. I will spend the day with my husband. I will email, call or text my sisters, family and friends.
So what is the problem!! Well 3 days after Valentine's day on Feb. 17 would have been my beautiful daughter's 23rd birthday!! She is my special Valentine and angel in heaven. So this year my heart feels heavy thinking of her and what her life would have been. I have come to accept this reality, but only those that have lost child know the feeling.
Angelina, which means little angel, I miss you, your brothers are young men and they talk about you as if you were here. Your dad and I will always remember our first born and only daughter!!
Then to add to this heaviness in my heart the fact that my mom is in a nursing home after her stroke. It is so hard to visit with you mom and you not recognizing it is me. The few moments that you do remember me are so few and precious!! I sit here thinking of you tears streaming down my face. I miss you mom and I love you.... I found this Betty Boop picture and it reminded me of you, so I posted it on my page == you made me one for Christmas which I put out every year.
Happy Valentine Angelina and Mom!! You are both always in my heart!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • HEALTHYGRAMMY49
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I've not lost a child (can't even imagine that sorrow), but I miss my little sister, 8 yrs my junior, (she was just barely 49 y/o) to MS 6 yrs ago. I long to see her again in Heaven for all eternity. Hope the day of love (Valentine's) will bring a celebration of tender memories of happier days with your DD & DM. My brother (3 yrs younger than me) has Alzheimer's. I share your pain.
    Bigs emoticon for you my friend.
    1982 days ago
  • ADRIENALINE
    Hug all the wonderful folks who are still in your life.
    1982 days ago
  • SVELTEWARRIOR
    emoticon I hope you know that both of your special ladies love you and know that you love them.
    1982 days ago
  • no profile photo IMPERIODEE
    thank you for reminding me to cherish the time i get to spend with my family members. i used to work abroad but decided to go home after 4 years. i know it is good to earn more but i also came to realize that no amount of money can replace the time i can spend together with my family members, while they are all still alive and healthy.

    i am sure your mom and Angelina loves you very much, dear bbonet. thank you for sharing your story!
    1982 days ago
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