Life Update! 8 months later...
Monday, February 10, 2014
I know I haven't been on here in quite some time... And I have no excuse for that.
I just wanted to take the time to tell you all what I've been up to! First off, the bad news. I gained back almost all the weight I had lost... Right back up to 320 lbs. I managed to keep that other 15 off at least! lol.
In October, we moved from a tiny 3 bedroom apartment that had safety hazards everywhere to a large 2 storey, 5 bedroom house that was just fixed up! We went out on a limb and jumped on it, hoping I was going to nail a job in the next few weeks. Long behold, the day we were moving I got a call that I was now the new Studio Manager for our local Walmart Portrait Studio. I got to learn photography (which had always sprung an interest in me anyway) and got to be the boss. I absolutely LOVE my life at this moment. Sure we are still struggling to adjust to a much bigger budget, but we are making it work. The children are much happier because now they have a bedroom each, my boyfriend and I finally have us some privacy, and we have outside space to ourselves!!!! How sweet! hehehe
During this time, I have also grown a lot as a person, as a woman and as a mother. I can seriously say I am now accepting my body as it is. Yes, I am working on it, but I have decided that I am no longer going to beat myself up. There will only be moving on. I feel more at peace with myself since I've started feeling this way. I just woke up one day and realized I was way too bitter and angry for all the grace and blessings I have in my life. Doesn't mean I have "turned to God" or whichever, it just means I am truly grateful right now.
I mean really, what else could I want in life? I have 3 beautiful, smart and healthy children. I have a wonderful boyfriend of almost 4 years who is a great man, romantic, thoughtful, strong hearted, kind and loves my children as his own. I have a great stable job. I have a beautiful home (we may be renting, but it is still ours lol), a car that runs. Our family is fed, we have a roof over our heads and we are together.
I'm done freaking out over "we could use more food" or "we could use a newer car", "I could lose some weight, my kids must think I'm ugly". My children tell me countless times a week that I am beautiful and an amazing mom, so I have my answers.
Just around New Year's my boyfriend and I were talking that we could start going to the gym now that we had a little more spending money... So on January 20th, 2014 I went and bought 2 gym passes. We started that Wednesday morning (because of scheduling and travelling issues). Today I am weighing in at 306. I have lost 14 lbs in 3 weeks from going to the gym 3 times a week for 40 minutes. I've stopped drinking energy drinks daily; we will share once here or there, but I am able to go as long as I want without getting the headaches, which is a good thing. We are eating better and less as well, that shows also!
My boyfriend has only lost 3 pounds but that is because he is bulking up :))
I have not set a time limit on my weight loss. I haven't set any goals whatsoever except that we will consistently go to the gym for our 3 days a week; I will continue to make healthier choices but will NOT beat myself up if I decide to have some pop some day, or some chips another day. This is life. I will have my indulgences, but I will limit how often and how much I have.
I will probably keep checking in every few weeks or so, but just know that I may not be skinny, but I am getting healthier and most of all, I AM HAPPY.