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Emotions rampant = move more.

Friday, February 07, 2014

Today is an odd day. I am crying at happy, sad, laughing at happy. I feel off somehow. Emotions are up front and speaking out. I probably need to burn some energy. Some people I know are going through rough times, like we all do but they are finding it hard to see the light, the positive, that changes us and makes us who we are. I wish I could help more but I can not. They need to see it and embrace it and learn from it and all I can do is pray they do. Facebook is wonderful and horrible all in one. It is hard to not get caught up in the drama that is always being expressed. This day is testing my "tolerance goal". I am not in their shoes, I do not see their story, I can not judge.

I know part of my emotions are because I am doing everything right but the scale goes up, then down, same 4 pounds past 3 weeks. The number does not define me. It does not rule my day. It does sit on the back porch of my mind and occasionally the swing there moves and catches my attention and I have to turn back towards the future and my dreams & goals. It is distracting and I need to stay focused.

I will remind myself change takes time and I have time. I am in process like a file on the computer. I am growing and getting healthy one day at a time. I know moving will better my mood so I will go and exercise now and get some emotions out the healthy way and who knows, maybe that scale will be lower tomorrow.

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  • REBBUL67
    It is really hard to keep pushing forward when you feel that way! I'm sorry also to read about the loss of your pet. They are our furry kids. When I lost my Ashlei a year ago, it was rough. Sending you positive thoughts to emoticon through the ups and downs, you have a strong drive to succeed and you will!
    1561 days ago
  • KAREN608
    Exercise is the best mood enhancer! That is why I walk in place, I feel better. My cold is about gone. LOVE how you write. Back porch of your mind! Sigh so poetic.

    FB... the only drama I had slightly was my step grand daughters defriended me since the 'real' naughty gramma is slightly online and so I laugh and be glad for her. They are in the big drama years in early 20s, and I don't think I want to know. They are five hours away and a world away.

    Maybe the scale won't move but you will be more fit, energetic and healthier which is the most important of all.
    1564 days ago
    Great attitude, I am trying to walk through all my ups and downs mentally about the scale not moving fast enough myself. That's all we can do, go forward, because we do not want to go back!

    1591 days ago
    Yes, that exercise does help those endorphins, doesn't it? I think that is one reason that I am now such a walking fanatic; I certainly would never have thought that I would see some movement as a necessary part of my day.

    As for FB, oh my....I have a love/hate relationship with it, and if I am getting drawn into the drama, I sometimes I have to limit my time there. That's just me. I am SO glad that when I was younger that I did NOT have FB.

    We can do this, my friend!
    1592 days ago
    1592 days ago
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    Wish we could sit, have a cup of tea and visit with each other!
    . . . s u s y . . .
    1592 days ago
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