A Positive and a Negative

First, the positive: Workouts are going wonderfully. Getting stronger, building endurance. It’s a beautiful thing when Jillian says, “Are we ready to begin (or move on, or start the next circuit)?” and my reply is an unequivocal, “Yes!” with a handclap for emphasis. (As opposed to last week, when my replies were more along the lines of, “Are you kidding? Hell no. I gotta rest my legs, get a drink, catch my breath, blow my nose, feed the cat….”) So… Progress!

Also, at the end of my workouts so far this week, instead of feeling completely wiped out, I contemplated doing more. *Didn’t* do more, but thought about it. Point being, I felt strong enough to keep going. That might have just been the endorphins talking, but it’s a huge improvement over doing everything in my power just to make it to the end of the workout without keeling over from exhaustion. More Progress!

Now, the negative: Calories. I finally met my minimum calorie goal (once), but I did it in an unhealthy way. Ugh. I’m trying to cut the fast food, cook more, make healthy choices, but when I do, I struggle to make 1200 cals, much less my minimum goal.

I can’t bump up serving size, because I’m usually full after one portion (or half a portion, even). I don’t like to snack between meals because I’m not hungry then. I’d just be eating to eat and I don’t really want to start that kind of habit. Only thing I can think of is to eat higher calorie food. But that usually means not-so-healthy choices. Ugh. What to do?

I’m hoping that the more I exercise, the hungrier I’ll be. Downside is, because of my weight, I don’t burn that many cals. A 45-minute high-impact cardio session burns 220, according to SP. Can that be right??? It seems like I’d have to work my tail off half the day to burn the kind of calories I need to burn to be hungry enough to eat the amount of food I need to eat for my body to build some healthy muscle and let go of some fat. So frustrating!

Anyway. I’m really happy with the progress that I *have* made. As soon as I can figure out this food thing, I’ll be on a great track. Overall, it's shaping up to be a fabulous February!