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Tuesday, February 04, 2014

Been here, done this, it's been very good for me. Good people, good ideas, good inspiration, good things to learn about, good incentives, just plain good for me! Then life happened in fast very ill the end of 2012 with diverticulitis....then surgery - bowel resection in early 2013....that took a long time to heal from....then my 10 year old child became seriously, seriously ill with lung disease and a serious heart condition...many hospitalizations, two heart between I had 2 more surgeries.....left knee and right daughter, Lexi, got out of hospital 10 days ago after her open heart valve replacement, she is doing amazingly well, may be going back to school before on the other hand... that knee is taking forever to recover! My surgery was no where near as major and it was 7 weeks ago! I slipped on a puddle in Ronald McDonald house during my daughters other heart surgery....ACL, MCL and complex miniscus surgery was between her 2. I'm still hobbling, going to PT, being good about my exercises. If i would lose weight I'd heal faster. Just the thought of focusing on losing weight (instead of indulging my every whim....and this medical rollercoaster has resulted in many whims)....just thinking of losing weight has plunged me into opposional eating...Dairy Queen mocha moo latte, large, 2 days in a row at 820 calories....that's sabotaging. Now that I've got that over with and I'm telling on myself...perhaps I can reclaim consciously feeding myself healthy foods that will sustain and heal me. A few weeks back as I was blubbering in pain and eating potato chips my 10 year old said, "you can't eat your sadness"... she's got it....and that girl knows pain...
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    You are making good progress....take me along with you!
    1771 days ago
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    Sending you loving thoughts and emoticon I know caring for your daughter has been tough, especially with your own injuries. I'm sending positive energies that you can both get well, physically, mentally & emotionally. So hug that beautiful daughter of yours, tell her I asked her to hug you for me, and know that there are people who are rooting for you.
    1772 days ago
    You can do it. It sounds like you have an amazing kid. Good luck and we are here for you!
    1772 days ago
    What a year! and what wonderful insight, "you can't eat your sadness"...
    So glad you are back and looking forward to our new emoticon ship.
    1772 days ago
    1772 days ago
    first emoticon i think you need it.i am very sorry love that you are going through so much.wished i could help.what you went through with your daughter is one of my biggest fears for my you know he also has lung and heart problems.wished you had said that the knee was less painful by now and not so much pain for yourself but also for me i have a knee replacement op coming up on my left knee as we├Âll lol.hope you and yout very wise daughter recover soon and remember her wise words about not eating your sadness. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1772 days ago
    Wow.. a very smart daughter who cares about her mom. Set an attainable goal TODAY and go for it. I've been here 7 years and I set it yesterday. Today I woke up excited about the choice. YOU CAN do it for the family and yourself.
    1772 days ago
    emoticon It is so good to see you here and taking steps toward a Long, Healthy Future with that Very Wise Daughter of yours!!
    1772 days ago
    I'm sorry for all you've gone through! I hope you're both on the road to recovery. When life gets hard it just gets in the way of our best laid plans. BUT, you've caught yourself! Every day is new. You get a new opportunity to start fresh.

    Good luck!

    1772 days ago
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