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Saturday, February 01, 2014

Iv noticed a trend in my blogs. Positive, negative. Happy, sad. If one where to judge my personality by my occasional blogs I may be deduced to being bi-polar. Perhaps I am. Its a possibility. I dont blog every day so its hard to say. I should journal daily but I have an aversion to it. For a number of reasons. That I dont feel like discussing right now. I will consider that offline.

So, turn in my attitude? I dont know. Like I say-give it a couple of days and I will feel different. Everything passes. Now is that acceptance or passivity? That might be worthwhile to psychoanalyze.

Iv been spending and unhealthy amount of time on tumblr on my phone this week. Like spend countless work hours and half my cellular limit on it. No bueno. However, has lifted my funk. Did you know there is a whole another world out there? Wow news to me, Im old I guess, used to my SP blogs and such. Young kids these days, I can see how they can get addicted to that shiz. Im grateful for my program and my experience to recognize a pattern. I can easily get addicted to anything that takes me out of reality. Thats nucking futz! I can tell Im going to be mostly over by Monday. Fantasy doesn't have the sway over me it once had. I can 'go there' for a few days but disillusionment comes quickly. Im too old for that BS, too much a realist at heart. But it is nice to 'get away'.

Only a little over 24 hours til my next fix of Sherlock on Masterpiece. And I sadly think its the end of the season. 3 episodes a season? I guess that's right. So much packed into each of those 90min. My husband had bought the first season dvd for me for Christmas 2012. Just watched them a few weeks ago, before I even know that the series was coming back for a 3rd season. That last episode tho, I think its the best ever. Iv seen then all at least once. The emotions it evoked in me. Kind of woke me up. And sometimes waking up is painful.

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    1543 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    Everybody needs their passions
    1543 days ago
    I'm not a doctor, and I've never met you in person, but I do read your blogs and for what it's worth- I don't think you're bipolar.

    I'm sure that I only know a small portion of what goes in the world of Daphne, but I can tell that you are sort of a rough place in life right now. The fact that your blogs go from sad to happy isn't a sign that something is wrong with you, it's just a sign that you have emotions. We all do. Nobody is either sad or happy all the time. It just doesn't work that way.

    To me, the fact that you are able to express the sorrows in your life and then move forward with a smile is a sign that you are an incredibly strong woman capable of expressing both the good and the bad in your life. You're proving that you can take life's knocks and come out even better for it. It says that you do whatever it takes to be there for your precious little girl.

    It's wonderful to be introspective, to find patterns in your behavior, identify which patterns are unhealthy and to work on changing them. The danger is that I think a lot of women tend to assume that any pattern they exhibit is somehow bad or unhealthy. Not so! Some of them are incredibly helpful and healthy.

    Oh- and I totally hear you on the phone thing. I'm completely addicted to mine, too!


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