The anchor’s not to hold you back but to keep you close to Him.
Saturday, February 01, 2014
Stuck. I have been a believer for 40 years, but most of my life I felt stuck in the same stormy waters that kept me from being happy, kept me from losing weight, achieving what I thought I should professionally, even freely giving and getting love. This is the year it changed. I heard a Christian song on the radio in my car and I had a “moment”. I heard my own voice say, What if these turbulent waters have been custom designed? What if God is directing the storm-tossed path I slog through daily? What if it was his plan for me all along? Has there been a God wrought anchor in my waters of despair?
I had to let it sink in, saturate my mind for a while. Even if I believed it, what then? I always wanted to be close to God, closer than I was, right? Be still and know that I am God. Be still. When I finally stood still in the muck long enough, somehow I knew the anchor wasn’t there to hold me back but to keep me close to Him. The things that caused me the most pain have been my through-lines to Him! The whole time I was dragging myself through muck to escape, praying for change, he’d been holding me there, building my character.
I can’t explain it all or the cascade of events after that intimate insight into who God is and how much he loves me. I was offered the pearl of great price and this time I’ve sold everything to keep it. And now somehow, stuck no more, I am happy, free to go where he leads.
Crazy ,huh? Crazy cool.