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Thursday, January 30, 2014

I think I've finally had enough. I have gained 30 pounds since September. Most of my work pants have been folding over because of my round midsection. I have not been to the gym since early December.

I posted something on Facebook about needing to go to sugar rehab, and got all this feedback and advice, which I wasn't really asking for, but I guess that's what happens when you post something on social media. The fact of the matter is, I know what I need to do. I just haven't been very willing. The false, temporary comfort of sweets has had its allure, and I just wanted to stay there.

I just don't want to keep on this path. I sent some message to Mikey last night about it, and he suggested we go to the gym tonight. I have my clothes packed. This is more than I can say I've done in months. I truly think that if I stay away from sugar today that I can make it. Sugar really is my down fall. I have a little, and I can't seem to control what happens next. It must be the addict in me. I guess it's time to buck up and learn to live with that truth. Most people struggle with sugar, so it's not like I'm alone, but the roller coaster ride has been ridiculous.

Whole grains and fruits don't even seem to work because I have been trying to do just that... I don't know. I am just sticking to sugar right now. One thing at a time. I have some steel cut oats, so maybe that's an option. I just can't seem to help gorging on carbs when I eat them.

Perhaps with a little practice today, February will be a new start for me.
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  • GYPSYGOTH
    Yah. Me, too. I've been trying to avoid sugar and things that go to instant sugar in my blood like flour and fruit (I mean, I eat some fruit, but not as much as I used to; more veg). I can't stop once I have a little bit. It has to be the insulin thing. Addiction, too, though... I am definitely someone who will binge on candy or ice cream or what have you got that's sweet? :P

    I haven't been working out like I want to, either. Super proud of you for packing and planning to go. emoticon

    Hope you can self-talk enough to make yourself do what you know you need to do. emoticon
    1723 days ago
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  • no profile photo ELRIDDICK
    Thanks for sharing
    1723 days ago
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