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Mourning the loss of my pain treatment

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

It's been 3 weeks since my last round of pain treatment at the joint (the hospital), and those last drops of treatment drugs seem to have been depleted.
I find myself sad about that since that also means that restful sleep is now a luxury I won't get much of, and my annoying pain is back to 100%. I seem to have a whole litter of new lesions breaking through on my hands and feet too, which force me to think twice about walking or touching anything, and take months to heal.
Although the treatment drugs only seemed to blunt about 30% of my pain, I now see how much that truly did help. Even though I only got about 2-3 weeks of that pain buffer, I should be thankful that there is at least one option for me that I can go to.
It's not a cure. And I would rather have one, but we are not there yet.
I need to shake the funk off and look back at the small daily tasks I was able to do a bit better, even temporarily.
My dog certainly appreciated the extra wuzzles. I also drove short distances around town, folded some laundry, cut up some brussel sprouts (don't laugh! I love these things!), and got my eyebrows penciled on straight more times than not.
I guess I just needed to work this out a bit in a blog.
Funk has been shaken and wiggled off.
Transformed into anticipation of my next round of treatment in 4 weeks.
The countdown has started. I will cut up more brussel sprouts soon! Munch munch munch...

'Nuff Said,
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    Did you go to Mayo? Or is this an old blog? So curious to find out if it helped. It is not in the realm of possibilities for me to go....insurance and all that. I would like to go. Is it a far hike for you? Do you stay in the hospital when you go? or in a hotel? I hope you get some answers and some relief. God bless!
    1918 days ago
    As always, I am praying for some relief for you. Brussels sprouts, huh. Whatever floats your boat. I like them, too, but I don't think of eating them all that often. lately I have been using some veggie cheese. I used to hate it, but maybe I found a brand that I can handle. I also found some thin, crispy tostidos. I hope they keep making those.

    Thinking of you, chris
    1920 days ago
    Crossing fingers for an immediate cure -- what is up with those scientists..shouldn't they be working double time already emoticon ..I have to say that your positive attitude is so inspiring..I'm sure you're sick of hearing that..but just want to say that your blog rocked. Thank you for posting...hope your week is going well. emoticon
    1927 days ago
    It's amazing to think that there is a silver lining. What I mean to say, is pain therapy works for you. For many people.

    Nothing worse than having a funk, but everyone has one.

    I have to say, I hate brussel sprouts. Never liked them. So smile whenever you munch one, 'cause in the back of that massive brain of yours, you can hear me saying...."eeeeeeeewwwwwww'

    1933 days ago
    When we have pain, we realize how fortunate we were when we did not have it. But I hope that pain goes a way and your healing is expeditious.
    1939 days ago
    I like that you remain positive, looking at the things to be thankful for. I like how you handle all this stuff. I think that you are quite possibly the most inspirational person in my life. No joke. No silliness (not for this posting, anyway). I mean that sincerely. You are amazing.
    1939 days ago
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    I pray for the day that someone/something hustles CR@P & Ethel into a room and beats the, well, cr@p out of those two bullying diseases. Maybe the answer is at Mayo - I certainly hope so. I am excited for you to go. You forgot, on your list of accomplishments, POSTING A BLOG! I am happy to see this, and I am not alone. Because hugging sounds as if it would be painful, I am blowing kisses instead emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Ruby RED kisses, at that!
    1939 days ago
    As always, you are my hero! You were dealt a lousy hand of cards and you make the best of them. There is always hope on the horizon that someone will find a cure and put Ethel in her place. You are always in my prayers. You help me deal with my own challenges. emoticon
    1940 days ago
    I love you, girl. You always find the bright spot
    1940 days ago
    Oh sweet girl, you are one tough chick. I'm sorry the pain is back in full, I have been thinking about you and wondering......... emoticon
    Your sense of gratitude is uplifting and inspiring. It probably is uncomfortable/painful to be on the computer much so just know we are all here cheering you on and sending you beautiful thoughts and prayers for relief emoticon

    1940 days ago
  • no profile photo CINDYTW
    You are strong, you can do it! emoticon
    1940 days ago
    Keep posi! emoticon
    1940 days ago
    emoticon You are a true warrior. Hoping and praying that those Mayo doctors have some secrets tricks that will offer some longer relief
    1940 days ago
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