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Here we go again...

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

I decided to join Weight Watchers again. I had joined WW years ago and that is initially how I lost most of my weight. They changed some of their stuff around so I decided to give it a go. I have been emotionally eating and gaining and gaining weight so it was really time to do something. I'm tired of feeling bad about myself, on top of everything else I'm dealing with right now. WW is simple and I need simple in my life. So I joined.

Saturday was the anniversary dinner with my friend's parents. I actually surprised them with a bunch of her friends joining us and they were surprised. Overwhelmed at first but they said it was a great surprise. I also made them a memory box and we all wrote letters to them of our favorite memories of our friend. It was so nice to see everyone again.

Otherwise I'm going through the motions these days. Trying to make myself still do the things I love to do (like Zumba) and slowly work through all these emotions I'm dealing with. It still kind of amazes me how much a little creature like a kitty cat can impact your life so much. I miss him terribly. I'm hoping that with focusing on food and fitness I'll be able to work through some of these emotions in a constructive manner. Cause right now I just want to shut myself in. I know that's not going to get me anywhere though.

So here we go again. I'm excited to get back at it and feel like I have this under control again and make some progress. So far so good. Hope you all stay warm today and have a good Tuesday!
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    Good for you with the weight loss. Sometimes it is hard dealing with life's issues and staying on track. Seems you have it together and moving forward.
    1595 days ago
    What a wonderful way to honor a friend, both for you and for her parents. And it speaks volumes about the friendship that all of you shared that several of her friends gathered in remembrance 10 years later.

    Congrats on joining weight watchers. I've lost weight with them before as well. Please let us know how the new system or changed system works and is working for you.

    You can do this. You're making small steps in the right direction even though, understandably, all you want to do is go spelunking in your own personal cave. You're going to get there, keep pushing.

    1605 days ago
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    1605 days ago
    What a lovely surprise and a great way to honor your friend. I know this is always a tough time of year for you but even more with the loss of your furry friend. I went into a 4 month depression after we had to let our girl go. I actually gained 30 lbs over that time and it was because my metabolism shut down from not eating during the week (one meal a day sometimes) then I'd eat crap on the weekend like food was being banned. I probably left the house 3-4x during those months and that was for holidays. So I think your plan sounds like a good one. I wish I had discovered exercise as a way to deal with the loss but I think if you channel your energies into WW and doing workouts, it can do wonders for you to help get you through this time. I'm always here for you if you need me.
    1605 days ago
    Glad to see you are still Sparking! I hear you when you say "Here we go again...". I jumped back onto the SparkWagon Dec. 26th, hopefully to hang on until I can see 40 lbs disappear that I had regained. Very frustrating when I fall off the SparkWagon and get back into the old bad habits.
    Good luck to you with your diet plan and your goals.
    1605 days ago
    I'm doing Points N Paleo, my own programme, thanks.

    It's paleo foods (all that means is whole foods, no legumes or dairy, really that's all!) but counting points. Of course, I already ate processed foods yesterday but I *am* making better choices. I'm in week 2 of Points Plus tracking...

    Sadly, 'better' means eating like 50 points of food a day and YES that's better. Oy. I just emailed a couple of old WW pals and said that I'm going to export my daily diaries and email them. Maybe the shame will simmer me down? At least I'm eating a lot of GOOD foods, it's just that I'll eat way too much and then top it off with poor choices.

    Again, better than I *had* been doing. You're smart to nip it in the bud. These months of doing this are making it harder to switch back to sanity.
    1606 days ago
  • SAASHA17

    that was sweet of u to do that for her parents! cant imagine the grief of losing a child..

    and well meow wasnt a little thing in ur life..he was with u and will be with u forever...take care

    1606 days ago
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