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Books for Bulges update.... re Backsliding With the Big Boys

Friday, January 24, 2014

The flies flew south, but there are still flaws in the ointment.

At 3 AM, weary of reading Robert K. Massie's endless accounts (the final hundred pages of his "Catherine The Great" bring Xenon's paradox to mind) of the unacceptable number (unacceptable to Massie by implication) of very young men decrepit old brilliant Catherine the Great took to bed, I found myself reaching for Pratchett's Dodger with no intention of climbing on the scale first.

Dishonored, knuckles dragging, I realize it is time for me to reserve a room in the Northernmost Edge of Siberia Home For The Hopelessly Self- indulgent. Good-bye cruel world.

Part B: after the comments

I commit most of my most mindless errors of appetite either in bed with a book, or in bed with a book while driving a car. For almost a year, I have been reading for escape - riding the same wave as someone hooked on soap operas and bonbons. Not Pretty. Nor is it a good sign when I am a member of the Book A Day Club. That means I am not hiking, or painting, or cleaning, or gardening, or helping anyone here in home-sweet-Appalachia learn to read or write, nor nothin' else worth writing home to the folks about. Probably all I am doing is going to the lye-berry, checking out as many novels as my book bag will hold, cruising the grocery and going home. And I have done all of those things while wearing my pajamas and a raincoat. When I hit the skids, I backslide with the big boys, hon!

It is also time for me to stop making jokes about this. Failing to meet my goals for the day is one thing. Using that small failure as a way to get positive attention through quasi-humorous writing - well, I can get into escapist writing just as quickly as I can get into escapist reading. I apologize. I deserve better than that. So do you.

If I have decided to ditch the easy-reads for a bit - that's OK. If I have to earn the privilege of actually reading something of substance, if I have to work to get to read and use 16 ounces as the unit of fair exchange for that book, rather than 50 bucks an hour or whatever... that is not a bad thing. I am not being mean or even hard on myself. My spark has been sputtering. I have not been walking the talk. A change in my routine is overdue.

I love working. I just got out of the habit, that's all. % )

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    I save my favorite books for reading while I'm on the exercise bike. It's a great trick!
    1546 days ago
    I for one would never try what you are trying to do. Why didn't you pick something easier, like not take a bath until you lose a pound? Seriously, RACINGTODOIT is right. I know the idea is to be specific with your goals but realistic is in there as well. Reading is a pleasure, one that is calorie free, and deserves to be savoured. Let us help if we can, not that I am a poster child for weight loss!

    1547 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/24/2014 6:41:36 PM
    Sweet Karen, yeah... I do need to figure out how to ask for & accept help. But the post , for better or worse, was poking fun at myself. I have been in drama queen mode for a couple of weeks now.

    Re Catherine - totally tongue-in-cheek re her sex-life - at any age ! the thing is, she was a brilliant, in many ways progressive diplomat and ruler. In this book her end-game is spent buying beef-cake. I would like to read her story written by a woman. Massie's pandering gets old fast.

    Anyway, I haven't gotten a grip on a commitment to my own health. Maybe fewer goals and back to one day at a time, or one hour at a time.

    You are a good 'un! % ) xxxja
    1547 days ago
    So why do you torture yourself ! Stay away from the scale for a while - paint , create .
    We all do this - just because I am training for the Granny Olympics does not mean that I do not over indulge - stop stressing , relax - I hate to say this - I know I will get a back lash with love of coarse - revamp your menu - or clue us in - so we can help !! If I can do this - you can - Catherine is Old News - glad she getting laid , but she dead - we are not !! :) Hugs K
    1547 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/24/2014 3:33:10 PM
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