A Respite of Calm Before the Storm Resumes
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
I am choosing to take some of this calm quiet time to write before the storm of activity hits.
I have actually been able to relax some on this trip by myself to MN to help my DD Jillian. Yeah!
I am concerned about DD, her anxiety and all the normal questioning she is doing as a college freshman. I have been supporting and guiding her where necessary, particularly about the anxiety. She's been SO happy to see me, that I am worried about how she'll do when we don't see each other for weeks and then months on end.
My husband Dave has a job interview this afternoon. This is his first in a long time. And the unemployment has now lasted over six months. And our relationship has not been going well.
I got a call late last night that my mother was being sent to the hospital again, this time after a fall. When I called this morning, I found she broke her hip and may require surgery.
As far as I know, all is well with our son, Nate, 13 YO. I know that staying in his room is somewhat normal for a teenager. But I also know he retreats there when I get upset. And I feel guilty for that and feeling overwhelmed much of the time. Dave says he is supervising DS homework and that it is going well. This (the supervising AND the doing well) hasn't always been the case in the past, but I still don't check on it because I feel like I can't take on another thing.
Sooo, the game plan for today is:
- Lunch with Jillian - have to tell her about her grandma. Likely a tearful goodbye. And lots of concern.
- Drive 5-6 hours home - may go straight to hospital to see Mother
- Visit Mother - call first to see if she needs anything right away from her place
- Talk with Dave about the job interview went
- Try to get to bed early as I start work at 5 am the next day
And then my chaotic feeling life keeps going on and on. I need to find some calmness and peace in my daily life.
If you have read this far, thank you.