Day 77 - irony
Sunday, January 19, 2014
It has been my experience that people trying to change their lifestyles usually are not happy people! Me included!!! Lol
Change can be quite difficult, I envy anyone who finds it easy!!! Or say they do!!!! Lol the whole process is difficult! First of all the change is initiated usually because one is just not happy with something in ones life! Safe to say my initiating factor was misery- at how I looked and felt and a desire to not look like this at my daughters wedding! And then doing what is necessary is cumbersome at times!!!! Weighing measuring tracking foods!!! Always being on guard against temptation!!! Instantly planning what to eat!!! And then making time for exercise!!!! It's a lot of hard work!!!! And it is much easier to just give up!!! No more measuring tracking planning exercising!!!! And then thee is the emotional side of the whole thing!!!! When I started this journey, I missed certain foods like a best friend who had gone away!!! And then weighing myself! Did I lose anything? No -Catapult into despair and self doubt!!!! Or I lose a pound- instant euphoria!!! What a roller coaster !!!
Lol this is what my weightloss journey has been like! Why would I do this?
Well of course there is the wedding on day 300 but as well I have discovered quite ironically that I am actually enjoying the whole experience!!!!
Christmas was a flashback to my pre sparkpeople life!!! Ughhhhh! I have been back on the path now for a while and I feel physically better than I did all through christmas! Mentally I am so much happier! I always seemed to have a black cloud over me during christmas because I knew what I was eating was not serving me well and I felt mentally and physically horrible!!!
Since being back on the path I feel alive again, energetic and very hopeful for the future!!!!
I am happier overall and am smiling more!!!!!
So ironic that I am so much happier when I am immersed in the difficult task of life change!!!!