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Thursday, January 16, 2014

Well, it's been a crazy couple of months. I've been working a lot of long hours the last couple months and, just when I thought I was going to get a nice break over Christmas, I ended up working along with putting my Mother in a nursing home and cleaning out her apartment.

I have been feeling very alone as of late. I live alone, eat my lunch alone at work as I have to fill in when everyone else is on lunch, then I'm alone when I get home. Most of the time it doesn't bother me so much, but lately it has really been getting to me. I know that no one can do anything to change this but myself, but I am just really feeling down.

My goal in the next few weeks is to decide what I need to do to make myself happy and feel good about myself. I struggle with self esteem issues and this is something I really need to overcome. I have never felt that I was "good enough" at anything... This is something I REALLY need to work on. This will help with my weight loss efforts as well as I am an emotional eater.

On a positive note... My daughter is getting married this Fall so that's exciting. Got to get enough weight off so I don't have to wear a dress that looks like a bag!!! lol

Positive thoughts!!!!

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    Sorry you are feeling down. But you are right.... YOU are the only one who can change this. I understand having low self-esteem and being an emotional eater, but you MUST step out of your comfort zone initially and just put yourself out there!! People are everywhere.... just strike up conversations with them!! Does your daughter live near you? If so, make a mother/daughter date with her occasionally. Take a cooking class.... join a scrapbooking club.... whatever you like to do, do it with others.

    I talk to people all day at work so I love coming home and being alone!! (My hubby is in Florida working for the winter.) I do miss him, but its a nice break. LOL!

    As I have told you, my daughter is also getting married this year. Thankfully, I had a couple of weeks back on track when she got engaged last September, so I have been really motivated since then. August is right around the corner, and like you, I do NOT want to wear a dress that looks like a bag (or tent!). Dig deep.... and set goals. Not just weight goals, but food and health goals.

    Getting healthy is possible... for all of us. I am here for you anytime you need a boost. Everyday is a challenge, but we can do it.
    1613 days ago
  • SKATER787
    Be sure to get sunlight exposure everyday for half an hour, near the noon time the better. And stay on your feet as much as you can. You'll feel better.
    1615 days ago
    You've been through a lot lately! Part of what you're feeling may simply be the let-down and exhaustion (physical AND emotional) of all of that. Give yourself a little recuperation time!

    Then, start to think of things which give you pleasure. What do you like? not what you ought to do, or what is productive. What makes you smile? where is your bliss?

    Then go find things to follow those feelings. Even if it's only tiny things. Do you love nature? go to a park and have your snack. Watch kids and dogs playing in a park. Love to watch people? Go to a mall. Just hang out and watch. Reading? Don't always do it alone... go to the library. Find something new - a subject you'd never spend money on... you never know! Love art? visit some of the larger commercial buildings in town which display work from local artisans. Some cities have cultural centers which offer free or for minimal fees various art and craft classes. I took one one time on making pictures of natural items, placed on special papers in the sun - I made tons of beautiful one-of-a-kind stationery and cards! How about clay crafts? Take up a sewing hobby. Give a few hours here and there to volunteer groups who desperately need helpers. How about animal rescue groups?

    There are so many things that are possible... you just have to give yourself that space and acceptance to do for YOU, and not just give for others. Both are valid. You're worth it, too. Don't let anyone but YOU decide whether you're "good enough" or not! Nobody can be you as well as you can.

    Celebrate you!

    1616 days ago
    1616 days ago
    It's OK to be alone. Being lonely hurts though. You'll come up with a plan to get together with more people, but in the short run, take advantage of SparkPeople for some socializing. Come post in the team forum and get to know some new SparkFriends. It's good for your mood and good for your self esteem too.

    Always remember, esteem comes from the same root word as estimate, and that's all self-esteem is - a self-estimate. When you look at yourself be fair and be honest. Estimate your own self worth the same way you would your child's - looking for the good above all.
    1616 days ago
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