so, here i am, working out
, eating better
(not great, but making strides).
and this week, WEEK TWO, i only lost a pound
. yes, i know it is week two, which is notorious for little to no weight loss, but gosh, it is frustrating!
then on top of that, at my work (hospital), i was looked down on, that i am not pursuing a career in nursing. now, understand, i have been told many times, by many different people that i should, and maybe at one point in my life i wanted to, but that is not who i am anymore. this time, i told the person, that i appreciate that they think i should, but there are other things that i have a passion for and want to accomplish in my life. i told them that i want to train to get my next step in my karate life, and i want to teach women's self-defense.
in which both require me to be in very good shape, and have self confidence. to which the reply was, "oh.... well, that is nice..." so my mind wonders if i am not good enough.
then, a very close friend of mine (who i love dearly, and never makes me feel inferior), tells me that she is going for her second interview for a higher up job in her field. i am so happy for her, but yet again, that jealous monster, creeps in!
am i really taking enough steps to be successful?
what is success?
by definition it means... "a person or thing that achieves desired aims or attains prosperity, the attainment of popularity or profit." the one definition i like the best is... "the accomplishment of an aim or purpose."
this can mean a million different things! everyone has their own idea of what the meaning of success is.
, whatever. i have got to quit trying to get other peoples approval on what is the meaning of my success, is to them.
what is the meaning of success to me? big fancy house, tons of money, high paying job? no.
success for me is...
and what i can give back to this world.
i need to remember these things, i might not be president of the united states, big movie star, high paying job...
but what is most important is being happy and having a positive impact on others. be the best spouse, parent, friend i can . AND give back, and for me, that is working in my lowly position in the hospital as a tech. (nursing assistant)
, AND teaching self defense to people (especially, women and girls)
it doesn't matter what others think of me, only that i am happy and doing God's will. do i want to make others happy by doing what THEY want me to do, or make myself happy, by helping others find their way to self development and self confidence? it doesn't matter what others may think, it is what my passion is, what my purpose is. i gotta read back over this blog a lot, since that jealousy monster visits often...
do what God wants and everything else will fall into place. i don't need to be the most successful in peoples minds, just the best me in my heart.