Ups and downs
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Well, today is the first day of my classes. I finally received the syllabus for one of them and it looks completely do-able. Not too bad. Just have to wait and see how the other one shapes up.
I had a rough start to the morning which has had me down. I got mad and yelled at my daughter because I caught her lying to me. She told me she made her lunch, I asked follow up questions about it, she lied some more, and then it turns out she didn't make it, she was going to buy it despite there being a house full of groceries. I don't know how long she's been doing this. Part of her retort was that her dad gave her money for Christmas to spend anyway she wanted to without being judged. There's a lot of things I don't like about the situation and the lesson that message imparts. I guess it's not worth hashing out here but needless to say, I wasn't happy about her response and deflection away from the initial issue of lying and I wasn't happy about it being inferred that I was judgmental about the way she wants to spend money by my co-parent. My job is to teach her to act responsibly and I am failing. I cried a bit on the way to work. Some days I really hate being a parent. That may be awful to say, but sometimes I just feel so ill-equipped.
Otherwise, my week is going well enough. I've been eating well. On Monday I did a zumba class plus a C25K run and my old leg injury flared up. Yikes! I told myself to dial it back. The last thing I need is another 2 months off. Yesterday the leg was still aching a small bit (dully) and so I did NOTHING, other than my walks across campus (job related). Today I have no pain at all. I won't have time to exercise today because of my classes after work but I will be doing more walking around campus. Tomorrow I'll hit the gym again and see what happens. No more doubling up on high impact, though. Hopefully as my muscles grow stronger, this will become less of an issue.
It's hump day. Hoping the rest of the week is a little sunnier.