Saturday, January 11, 2014
At 199 pounds I still have 40-50 pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight. I have no doubt that I can and will reach my goal. I have already lost well over a hundred pounds so its just a matter of putting in the time and effort.
So, here's where the dilemma comes in. I don't have an accurate view of my own body. I know now that I NEVER have. When I was first married and weighed just over 120 I worried that my wedding dress would show how "fat" I was. And now, when I tell people how much I still need to lose they look at me all incredulous and tell me they can't believe I have that much left and that they worry about me "going too far".
I am fully aware that they might be just being polite. Its awkward for me to take compliments. I'm still not used to it. And maybe telling them "Thank you, but I still have x-amount to go" is off-putting? Is it possible that the extra skin I'm carrying weighs enough that I really DONT have that far to go? I wish I could see myself through a strangers eyes....
But then again maybe not. What if I look much worse than I thought...?
Well in any case, I FEEL pretty good today and I hope you do too !