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Distortion Dilema

Saturday, January 11, 2014

At 199 pounds I still have 40-50 pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight. I have no doubt that I can and will reach my goal. I have already lost well over a hundred pounds so its just a matter of putting in the time and effort.

So, here's where the dilemma comes in. I don't have an accurate view of my own body. I know now that I NEVER have. When I was first married and weighed just over 120 I worried that my wedding dress would show how "fat" I was. And now, when I tell people how much I still need to lose they look at me all incredulous and tell me they can't believe I have that much left and that they worry about me "going too far".

I am fully aware that they might be just being polite. Its awkward for me to take compliments. I'm still not used to it. And maybe telling them "Thank you, but I still have x-amount to go" is off-putting? Is it possible that the extra skin I'm carrying weighs enough that I really DONT have that far to go? I wish I could see myself through a strangers eyes....

But then again maybe not. What if I look much worse than I thought...?

Well in any case, I FEEL pretty good today and I hope you do too !


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  • KIMSOKAY
    Janet you have to follow what you believe is healthy for you. It does suck when we don't know exactly how others see us. I had read somewhere that if you lay down and have someone draw chalk around the outside of your body you get a clearer impression of your proportions. Keep up the good work!

    1738 days ago
  • BSTMAMAS
    I think you look great and I congratulate you on your loss. Keep going till you're comfortable.
    1738 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    You know, I am in the same boat as far as having lost 100 lbs. (70 with SP). I have reached my goal and maintained, but still those "body dysmorphic" ideas can creep in. I find NOT focusing on the weight, but rather how I feel, how my clothes feel, my energy level/stamina and the like really helps.

    HUGS
    1738 days ago
  • MCCC75
    What a great job you have done losing 100 pounds already! Don't worry about others; work to the weight you feel most comfortable at!! emoticon
    1739 days ago
  • REDHEAD582
    I agree, it's your goal. Keep it up. I too had coworkers tell me I was losing too much weight (what???) they were skinnier than me. I now realize part was wanting me to be healthy and celebrate what I had accomplished. That was allright then.


    1739 days ago
  • BETHLOVESBIKING
    I agree with Carolinawkiwi----it's not about what other people think! Being happy with how you are progressing is what counts!

    I just saw a Facebook poster that said something like "The older I get the more I don't care what people think. Therefore the older I get the happier I am."
    1739 days ago
  • CAROLINAKIWI
    Don't worry about what others think. If you are happy with your goal that is all that is necessary! Hang in there!
    1739 days ago
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