God truly prepare us for His future plans
Friday, January 10, 2014
When I was pregnant with my youngest daughter Annabelle, my first prenatal visit I did the routine bloodwork and a couple of days later I found out my progesterone was lower than normal. So I was started on progesterone pills, which made me nauseous all the time. For the first trimester I was going to the doctor once a week for blood draws. Then I went for the first ultrasound. Suppose to be the most exciting time right? Well I thought everything was going great until I realized she was taking a long time. Turns out my daughter's heart rate was way over 200 bpm. Was this due to the progesterone or due to a heart defect? We later learned that her heart was fine but that her umbilical cord was not attached to the placenta correctly. The doctor was concerned about her weight gain so we did ultrasounds every 3 weeks to monitor. At the end of the pregnancy my doctor was concerned that I was developing pre-eclampsia. I did the bloodwork and the 24 hours urine catch. The next morning at 2am my water broke. At 4am God graced me with a beautiful 6lb 3oz baby girl. Normal heart rate and all. The thing we were worried about with the umbilical cord was actually worse than we thought.
The thing I didn't mention yet was that I found out I was pregnant the week my husband went away for law enforcement training 3 hours away. He was gone for 4 months. He only came home on Friday nights and left to go back on Sunday afternoon. I worked every Saturday so our time together was limited. I tried not to worry him with what was going on with the pregnancy because he was so stressed with his schooling.
I tell you all this because I have come to the realization that God really does know what is going to happen. I think He allowed me to go through all that by myself to prepare me for what I'm going through now.
My son who is 3.5 yrs old has overtaken my calendar with his doctor appointments. I first got a referral for speech therapy ( in October), then found out that he had to have a hearing test, which we just somewhat finished. Since he is having issues with the hearing test we have been referred to an ENT. This past weekend he came home from his dad's house with blood in his urine, so I took him to the doctor. No infection but we have another recheck next Friday. We are still awaiting a behavioral consult which won't be done until March. I'm learning to deal with all of this again by myself since I am divorced and my ex has quickly re-married. He did come to the doctor appointment over the weekend but only because he was in the area. He has not been to the speech appointment, the hearing appointments, and he is not planning on coming to any of the follow-up rechecks for the bloody urine and is not coming to the ENT appointment.
I am learning to just trust God now. Since my ex wasn't there for me when I was going through the stuff with my pregnancy I learned to just deal with him not being here for our son and all of his medical things.
So yes, God gives us more than we can handle but it's to prepare us for what is to come.