I Don't Want to Be Journalling
Thursday, January 09, 2014
I don't want to be journalling, writing a blog entry or doing SP stuff right now.
I want to be eating, eating, eating, watching fluff stuff on Netflix. Anything to not feel.
So what am I feeling? Hot - it is warm in this room that is right above the furnace. Distracted by the cats wrestling in the hallway, which results in bangs on the door. Trying to figure out how to arrange the cheapest way to stay near DD, who has requested I come visit her at college. Fearful that she is having a rough time with the anxiety and wrangling resources to enable her to stay in school. Ticked off that I can't get a live person whenever I call about not having cards for our new insurance - left message again. (*update* - the cards *just* came in the mail - yeah!) A little resentful that because of work and running my mother to rehab and the store, I won't be able to go to gym until the early evening tomorrow. Ashamed maybe of how I've been mostly missing exercise and often way overeating. Yet I want to do the eating eating eating thing again.
I did exercise today - did 41 minutes of run/walking on the treadmill. I know what I've eaten - so it can be tracked. And I am writing this blog.